07/12/2025
It was easier for me to make a “quick” video regarding why I had to cancel this entire week of clients.
It is longer than I anticipated, partially due to my slower speech, and even though I tried to be as linear and cohesive as possible, I know this wasn't the case.
So here's the cliff notes/tldr version:
I had a severe panic attack the night of July 3rd, and have spent the last week in my house and on the couch. The post-attack effects I've been experiencing have been all encompassing, from physical symptoms like how even though I've slept and overslept as my body recovers, I'm still beyond fatigued. And the cluster migraines, painful muscles as the overload of released lactic acid leaves my body. Mental effects like brain fog, memory issues, speech changes. More discussed in the video.
I've left the house only to go to the doctor (I couldn't even drive myself) in which we figured out I've been in a state of nervous breakdown for awhile but the panic attack really was the “aha” moment in a way.
I don't know how things will look going forward, and I'm scared about that. But this unfortunately has been brewing for awhile and my body finally said enough is enough.
Can't have a breakthrough without the break I suppose.
I'm physically getting better, but please continue to have patience with me as I navigate this time.
I hope everybody has been well
after having a severe panic attack the night of July 3rd, this is where I'm at regarding returning to see massage clients and just everyday life.