12/07/2025
This was an experience a client of mine had from one of my massages. This is her truth manifested from her somatic experience. I’m so grateful to hear her experience. This is a real blessing to me. ❤️
The hidden doorway inside your pain
Pain truly is a portal to a wonderful, expansive life. And this morning, on a massage table, I was reminded of just how sacred that portal can be.
There’s a moment, quiet, almost imperceptible, when pain stops feeling like something to escape… and becomes the very thing that sets you free.
This morning I had one of those sessions, the kind that feels like bodywork, energy work, and soul work all happening at once. My massage therapist is remarkable. She doesn’t just tend to the physical body; she intuitively follows the energy, listening, moving, clearing, releasing. I don’t think she fully knows the depth of her gift… but I do. Because I can feel everything she’s doing at an energetic level.
Every stroke of her hands moved with my energy body, not against it. Every point she touched opened something deeper. And as she worked, I felt pain rising, not sharp pain, but the kind that carries old memory, old density, old stories.
And then something shifted.
As I lay there, breathing into the sensations, I realized how extraordinary it is to be human. How incredible that we have bodies capable of feeling so much. How often we run from pain simply because we were taught to fear it… and how that fear keeps us from the very magic pain is trying to reveal.
We’ve been conditioned to avoid discomfort at all costs.
So we don’t only avoid physical pain, we avoid emotional pain too.
We avoid heartbreak, grief, disappointment, we avoid the truth.
We avoid the very feelings that are trying to liberate us.
But today, I let her go deeper.
And every time pain surfaced, I thanked it.
I thanked my body for feeling.
I thanked the energy for revealing itself.
I thanked the moment for showing me where I was still holding on.
As she worked, I allowed myself to surrender fully, into pain, into release, into the experience. And in that surrender, something profound became clear:
The pathway to pleasure, joy, bliss, grace, and expansion often runs straight through the places that hurt.
There is a thin, almost invisible threshold between pain and pleasure, between contraction and release, between holding and softening.
And when I crossed it, everything changed.
The pain dissolved into openness.
The tightness unraveled into clarity.
The density released into pure, luminous pleasure.
A deep, ancient bliss rose through me, a bliss that felt like truth.
Some of the pain in my body felt old… almost ancient.
Like it had traveled with me across timelines and lifetimes.
And as it released, I felt parts of myself returning, whole, free, remembered.
That is the real gift of being human.
To feel it all.
To allow it all.
To experience the full spectrum of this sacred, messy, miraculous life.
Sometimes we feel anxious, depressed, disconnected. We feel like we’re playing the wrong game, following the wrong rules, living on the wrong board.
But what if we are just missing the first rule of the game:
To allow ourselves to feel it All,
Allow the “dark” emotions.
Allow the discomfort.
Allow the pain to reveal what it’s been holding.
Allow the human experience to be what it was always meant to be,
a portal back to truth, to joy, to remembrance.
Pain is not your enemy.
It is the doorway to return home, to remember who you truly are.
Veronica Nouel, spiritual guide and healer
Founder of Lumina Circle, A sacred space to remember who you truly are, reconnect with your Divine Self, and return to trust, love, and knowing.
If you’d like to know more about Lumina Circle’s services, about my 1:1 private sessions and monthly group meditations, contact me at veronica@luminacircle.com
