Live For Them- My Sobriety Journey

04/30/2026

The last couple weeks, I felt off.
Disconnected. Disorganized. No real direction.

That’s when the thoughts start creeping in…
“You could probably drink and be fine now.”

I know better.

130 days ago, that mindset almost cost me everything.

So I went back to the basics.
The small things. The daily discipline.

Staying busy isn’t a distraction for me—
it’s survival.

Tomorrow is 130 days sober.
Still fighting. Still progressing. Still living for them

04/21/2026

TBI Update from my time at the BRAVE foundation in Milwaukee.

I’ve been going through testing and getting a clearer picture of what’s been going on.

The results show my brain has been running out of balance, too much low-frequency (slow) activity and not enough high-frequency (focus/processing) activity. That combination can affect attention, mental clarity, and overall cognitive performance.

This lines up with symptoms I’ve been dealing with:

Brain fog

Slower processing

Difficulty locking in focus/ word recall

Mental fatigue

Based on this, I’ll be attending a 3-week recovery program with the BRAVE Foundation in August. The focus will be on improving brain function, restoring balance, and building better consistency.

This isn’t about a label, it’s about understanding what’s going on and addressing it the right way. The good news is that my brain isn’t broken and my doctors are positive that we will see improvement in my daily life. The biggest threat to my brain is actually my hearing loss. I’m in the process of getting help with and look forward to how that will improve my quality of life.

It’s another step in my recovery and I’ll share updates as I go.

04/11/2026

I’m back from Milwaukee.

The evaluation gave me answers I’ve been needing for a long time.

Right now? I’m tired. A little overwhelmed.

But this was a step forward.

I’ll share more soon. 💕

04/06/2026

Flying to Milwaukee for a TBI evaluation.
Time to get answers.
❤️‍🩹

04/04/2026

I remember the night I took that first picture.

Not because I thought it looked cool…
But because it matched exactly how I felt inside.

Dark.
Alone.
Angry.
Full of hatred… especially for the man in the mirror.

For 10 months, it only got worse.
The darkness kept growing… until it almost took me out.

An ER visit.
A breaking point.

That’s when I found my way to Warrior’s Heart.

I couldn’t do it alone.
God, my wife, and a few close friends stepped in when I couldn’t stand on my own.
(You know who you are… and I owe you more than I can ever repay.)

Slowly… the light started breaking through.

I found hope.
I found brotherhood.
I found my way back to faith.

That second picture?
That’s not perfection.

That’s progress.

Where there was once darkness in my eyes…
there is now light.

I chose to live.
And now I live for them.

04/03/2026

03/31/2026

5 things you may not know about me.

1. I spent years fighting battles no one could see. Addiction, anger, and pain that nearly cost me everything.
2. I’ve been at rock bottom… the kind where you don’t recognize yourself anymore. But I chose to get back up.
3. Sobriety didn’t just change my habits, it changed who I am as a husband, a father, and a man.
4. I still have hard days. Healing isn’t linear. But I refuse to go back to the life I escaped.
5. My greatest accomplishment right now isn’t money or status. It’s being present for my family and choosing to live every single day.
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03/30/2026

There was a time, and if I’m honest, sometimes still where I struggle to feel like I bring value.

Not being able to work and provide financially right now… that’s hard.
It messes with your identity. Makes you question your worth.

But I have to remind myself that this is a season.

At face value, I know I bring value even if I don’t always feel it.

Right now my value looks different:
Showing up.
Being present.
Fighting for my sobriety.

And maybe that doesn’t look like much to the outside world,
but to my family….it’s everything.

So if you’re in a season where you don’t feel like you’re “doing enough”…

Keep going.

Sometimes your greatest value is just not giving up.

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03/27/2026

Fitness > Addiction