05/05/2024
Before I left Mexico earlier in the week, I wrote out some thoughts about some possible shifts in the wording I use to refer to the work that I do.
I've been referring to myself as a coach, but I'm considering dropping that "title," not because I don't coach, but because my work is far more faceted than that suggests. That one word isn't all-encompassing, and it downplays the other parts of my work.
I am a healer. That takes many forms; coaching is just one of them. The problem is that not everyone is comfortable with that word - healer - and that's okay. It's not my job to make the world comfortable. It's my job to meet people where they are, to accept their model of the world, and to help them find the truth inside of themselves -- that with which they're most aligned.
That's not always what I'm aligned with, or what I believe is best for that person, and that's okay. They are walking their path. As long as I am true to my path, I am in my own authentic alignment, and that is all that is ever asked of me.
I also know that I have no desire to participate in the practices that are pervasive in the coaching industry. I don't want to stand here and tell you about how much money I'm making, in order to entice you to follow me or work with me so that you can emulate my success. (Insider tip: those coaches who are boasting about their six- and seven-figure businesses are often exaggerating in the name of manifestation.)
I don't want to engage in pushy sales practices for high-ticket offers, or tell you that I'm the only person who can help you solve your problems and that if you don't work with me, you have no hope of ending whatever cycle of pain you've found yourself in. Yes, working with me will absolutely help you reach your goals, but to tell you that it's the ONLY way you can make that happen is to disempower you, and my goal - my job - is to facilitate you standing in your power.
Above all else, I don't want anyone to see me as anything other than a fallible human because, in this existence, that's exactly what I am; it's what we all are. Do I strive for full self-awareness? Absolutely, but I, too, fail. I lose my way. I sometimes believe the lies that fear feeds me. Sometimes, ego has her way. But, ultimately, I come back to the guidance of my highest self. My goal, always, is to offer others the tools and the confidence to do the same.
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My journey was not, in any way, what I was expecting it to be. It began to shapeshift before I ever left Denver, and that process continued throughout my trip. I don't begrudge that; I fully believe that I gained what I was intended to gain from the journey.
Sometimes things don't look the way we expect them to look.
Sometimes, we have to let go of our expectations and what we see as the unrealized potential of a situation in order to find the beauty and the gifts.
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I have been sitting in the energy of Mexico, sitting in the medicine of Mexico, all week. My body and Spirit are detoxifying, in ways that make sense and in ways that are a bit more mystifying. I am literally shedding my skin - which is a story unto itself. There are parts of the person who made the journey to Mexico with whom I am completely unable to connect, and aspects of the person who made the journey home who are new.
The day after I returned - Friday - I had a client for a Reiki session. In all the years I've been offering Reiki, I've never practiced Reiki in quite that way before.
Yesterday, I gave my partner a massage, which is not an unusual offering, but I've never massaged in quite that way before.
Yesterday evening, I went to Ceremony on land that is sacred to me. I've never performed Ceremony in quite that way before.
I'm looking forward, not only to seeing how those changes continue to manifest, but to bringing forth new offerings as a result, including women's circles and full moon ceremonies, among others.
Stay tuned.
