02/03/2026
MARK YOUR CALENDARS now for the final SUNDAY NIGHT of the month: Join us for the next GROUP Manifesting Circle (2/22/26, 7p-8:30p) - https://bit.ly/FEB-Tachyon
Happy Imbolc! I am sitting here in the cozy warmth of my blanket after the wild weather we had yesterday. We ended up with over a foot of snow on the farm! It’s been an interesting first winter to have horses, to say the least. All the animals are doing great thanks to the tireless efforts Valerie has put in these past few weeks- keeping water troughs full and ice free, spreading wood chips, clearing paths, filling hay nets and feed buckets. I’ve been very grateful that she works so hard to care for our little homestead!
I had another musing drafted up a few days ago and I’ll be honest it was pretty melancholy and melodramatic, so I made the right choice to pause before posting. But the essence of it still rings true- I am in quite the state of compression these days and I’ve been having a hard time with it. Last week, we took an ICE verifier training and it really crashed us into the reality of what we’re facing right now. I thought I was moving through burn out from work these past few months, but I realized after a good, hard cry and some deep introspection that I am struggling to move myself forward when the world feels like it’s crashing down around me. I know many of you are familiar with this feeling.
I always want to show up authentically and this is why I am sharing my struggles. I have been thinking a lot about the correlation between all the snow and ice we’ve had, about ICE in the news and about how I feel like I’m in such a state of functional freeze right now. And as I feel into the energy of ice, I think about the purpose it serves in our ecosystem. It provides cold stratification for plants and seeds, it tells the land to rest, it expands and aerates the soil and it asks us as land keepers to walk slowly, carefully and with intention over its surface. I am asking myself: what message does this place of frozen stillness have for me? Am I being asked to rest for a greater purpose?
As we talked about how it felt to be in that training call with our young daughter sitting between us, how dystopian and hopeless it felt, how silly it can feel to hold our little gatherings in the face of these huge, monumental shifts that are happening to the political and social landscape of this country, Valerie gently suggested that maybe we could try to reframe. Maybe the work we do here is a glimmer of hope against the chaos and a soft place for folks to land. That maybe one of the best ways we can help right now is to hold space for it all- the heaviness, the sorrow, the despair - and to wrap it in a container of love and understanding. That maybe what we’re creating is needed now more than ever. So I will keep moving forward and keep holding our classes and events, keep working on being in right relation with the land and animals, keeping building out our sanctuary, even when my heart feels heavy, because I trust that it will make a difference for people who come here- and most importantly for myself.
I am hoping against hope to hold the Spring Jubilee again this year but I will be honest- I am not feeling very jubilant right now. So I am humbly doing the hard thing and asking for support. If you would like to be involved in the building of this event, please reach out to me. If you have helpful techniques you’ve used to move out of freeze, please share them. I will need more support this time- and I know that love and joy can amplify when we come together.
If you made it this far, thank you for reading and holding space for me to be human. I hope to see many of your bright and shining faces once the roads are safe again!
2/7: Healing Sound Journey with Robbie Warren
2/8: Sunday Services: Mindful practices with James Bethune
2/15: Sunday Services: Community Ritual with Kit Hadlund
2/15: Fascia Self Care Mini Retreat Purple Fascia Fairy
2/21: An Evening of Kirtan with Aaron Condon
2/22: Sunday Services: Sacred Voice Opening with Hannah Seraphina Borababy
2/22: Crone Circle with Robbie Warren
2/22: Tachyon Group Manifesting Experience with TorchBearer Tachyon
