01/27/2026
Sometimes I look at this little guy when heās sleeping, and I wonder about his dreamsā¦. If you know Cannon, you know he always has āan ideaā and you know the wheels in that little mind are always turning. Last year, when we had to put our dog, Tank, down, Cannon became aware of the concept of death. Ever since then, he will make comments in reference to wanting Tank back, and he will often tell me, in regards to our other dog, Payton, āPay Pay no die. Pay Pay no leave Cannon.ā Of course, that is always heart breaking to hearā¦ but the other day, what Cannon said tore my heart in pieces. We were goofing around and laughing, and suddenly Cannon said āI no want to die. I want to stay with mommy.ā Cannon is NOT aware he terminally ill, this is said in regards to the fact he has gained awareness that our dog died, and isnāt coming back. But in that moment, my heart broke. Iāve always found comfort in the fact Cannon doesnāt comprehend he is sickā¦ and that because of that, he doesnāt fear death - but his comment struck me to my core. This little boy wants to be here - living, and experiencing all of the things life has to offer! He loves being around his family and friends, he is fascinated by animals, he is curious, adventurous, daring, and filled with so much love. I absolutely cannot imagine a world without Cannon in it. He is a light for so many, and his life is absolutely a life worth saving š Life may not look like how I envisioned it to be, but I know I was meant to be this boys mom, and I will never stop fighting to give him the life he deserves.
