12/27/2025
One year ago today I was in the hospital just one day postop from my second spinal surgery. Neither surgery was planned. The first was for cauda equina syndrome. 7 weeks later another surgery because of a large seroma that turned out to he a deep MRSA infection in my spine.
I remember hearing that I would need a PICC line and IV antibiotics for at least six weeks. Then ANOTHER six weeks of no bending, twisting, or lifting anything over 10lbs.
I remember how heavy that felt in my body. Even writing this now my eyes are filling with tears. It was one of the scariest times of my life and it felt like the biggest setback I had ever faced. My health anxiety was overwhelming and I was terrified of what this meant for my future.
My intention for this past year was to let myself heal. To be a soft place for myself to land. To have little to no expectations and to just be. And I truly did that. I gave myself the time and space I needed to heal and exist. It took months and months of mindfulness, letting go, and slowly learning how to trust my body again.
I was devastated at the thought of losing my yoga practice. I knew this was my invitation to lean into the other 7 limbs of yoga, not just the asana (postures) Yoga held me in ways even with little to no movement.
Yoga means everything to me and yoga means union or connection. Connection to my body, my breath, myself, others, and the universe. It has shaped my core values and become my purpose and my work, allowing me to help others find the same connection that I am honored to continue to discover.
I am so grateful for my community. The messages, the meals, the financial support, the cards, the care packages, and the constant reminders that I was not alone. So much of the support I received came from my yoga community, and I will never forget that. It is wild to think that six years ago I took my first yoga class and five years ago I joined Power Life. I have been practicing yoga consistently for five years now, and I have never been that consistent with anything in my life.
If you are in something hard right now, you will get through it. You are resilient, powerful, and strong. It is okay to be scared. Just remember who you are and what you are capable of.
If you made it this far, I am teaching a free Power 1 intro class tomorrow at 5:15pm in the East Village. I would truly love to have you there!!!! Please come as you are and let me create a safe, warm, and welcoming space for you to reconnect with yourself.
