12/01/2025
Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means to take care of myself… for real.
Not the “drink more water and try to walk when I can” version.
Not the “I’ll start again on Monday” version.
Not the “push through because everyone needs me” version.
The actual version.
The version that shows up when you realize you’re not 25 anymore… and your body and mind are asking you to pay attention.
The version where the brain fog hits at the worst possible moment.
Where you walk into a room and forget why.
Where stress sits in your shoulders like it pays rent.
Where you know you’re not fully yourself, but you also know you’re not broken.
Just… shifting.
And honestly? It’s uncomfortable.
It’s uncomfortable to feel like you should “have it together” but instead you’re piecing together your energy hour by hour.
It’s uncomfortable when you’re the one everyone comes to… but you’re quietly wondering, “What about me?”
I’m realizing that my old routines aren’t going to carry me into the next chapter of my life.
What worked in my 20s and 30s doesn’t work for me now.
And what got me here isn’t going to get me where I’m going.
So I’ve been doing something different.
I’m building a stronger foundation — slowly, intentionally, and without the pressure to be perfect.
➡ Prioritizing protein and eating enough (because under-eating is way too easy to fall into).
➡ Lifting weights again to feel strong in my body — not punished by it.
➡ Choosing routines that calm my nervous system, not exhaust it.
➡ Setting up habits that actually fit my real life, not some fantasy version of it.
➡ Walking every day, even if it’s just to clear my head.
➡ Giving myself permission to go slower than I think I “should,” because slow is sustainable.
Some days it feels like enough.
Most days it doesn’t.
But I’m learning to be okay with that.
Because this season of life is asking me to do things differently…
and I want my future self to look back and say, “Thank you for not giving up on us.”
I don’t know why I felt like sharing this today.
Maybe because someone else needs the reminder:
You’re allowed to shift.
You’re allowed to change your mind.
You’re allowed to do it slow.
And you’re allowed to take care of yourself without apologizing for it.
❤️