01/20/2025
2025 didn't start of quite how I wanted it, but appreciate how it needed it to start for my growth and transformation.
I haven't been able to process, much less integrate the fires in a place I grew up and have the most childhood memories free of emotional abuse and neglect. Everything about my childhood fell apart at the hands of my parents unresolved trauma, once we left L.A. The loss and devastation for the residents, businesses, animals and environmental health there is immeasurable.
I won't even attempt to process the sheer magnitude of war and exploitation that is happening globally...or this political system built on pure illusion.
Our disconnect from nature is grotesque as a humanity.
Our dependency on said system to save us, also sickening.
Personally, I edged into 2025 with my partner herniating 2 discs, throwing off a litany of fun plans for that I thought we needed to ESCAPE these multiple realities.
My beloved chickens I've raised from hatch are showing signs of illness. Triggering a lot of unresolved trauma I have from raising sick children in a moldy house, and all that entailed.
Navigating the holistic healing of them with herbs and tinctures and detaching from outcome. Grateful for the dry and hot weather this week despite it the 🔥 danger warning the region is under.
I feel old with my gray hair. I'm leaning in, which is NOT easy given societal norms on beauty standards. People stair and force themselves to say nice things. Grateful I can laugh at myself.
You don't get what you want. You DO get what you need.
Gratitude for it all.
Focusing on my yoga practice to keep my attitude in check.
This is gonna be a long year, and I was not ready to be kicked out of my chrysalis. Funny thing is, I told myself a story about what this chrysalis was...that I wasn't going to have to care for anybody but myself all year. Haha!
The Universe is the greatest shower of our foolery.
I'm determined to stay in and get through all of this season wiser and stronger...and more aware of the stories I tell myself.
Which slide is your favorite, and what are you in gratitude for despite?
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