07/05/2024
I have stood against insanity
That did not belong to me
I have stood between that darkness
And the one it chose to seek
I have said "you shall not have him!!!"
I've screamed into the night
I held him as he yelled and fought
Against the dying of his light
When he cried about the shadows
That sought to eat his soul
I soothed him with my poetry
I refused to let him go
But I was just one woman
And that madness would not cease
In time he found another way
To bring his soul some peace
He found it in a bottle
That allowed him to escape
He drank until oblivion
Took him far away
Leaving just the monster
The shadows manifest
A Hyde who was determined
I'd breathe my very last
And still I stood against it
The very best I could
I tried to save him from it
Until I finally understood
He'd chosen for his savior
A fermented delusion
And the thought that I'd be strong enough
Was simply an illusion
My heart shattered when I realized
His insanity had won
That I would have to walk away
To save our beloved son
From the ending that was coming
When those shadows had their fill
Leaving just a vessel
Where his father once stood still
So do not think you know me
Or have the faintest clue
The strength that I am made of
The horrors I've been through
You see, within his maddened mind
Only I was real
And though I lost him in the end
He's here with me, still
In some ways his insanity
Was all he left behind
The nights I stood against his dark
Live in my maddened mind
And though I am quite sane, I fear
In some ways, I am not
For I am the only one that's left
With the memories death forgot.
~Mandy Kocsis©2023~
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