Defrosting the Valley

10/20/2022

06/28/2019

I'm going to start this by telling you about the biggest hope dealer I've ever met I call him Cricket, he has been locked up 64 times and is the head of this program I'm in here at RSW the mcshene program and when I say the biggest hope dealer I mean that he walked in here one day and told me everything about myself I didn't even know yet and he didn't even know me. He said due to my sickness my brain says, more and more and he was right my brain always said more and then told me if I know I'm sick that I can treat it. It will never go away but with help I will live, without help I will die. I am a blackout m**h addict and that's for real anyone that knows me still doesn't know why I'm alive today and for real God must have had a plan for me. Then there is Diane and Hughe my heroes for real. Diane's clean for 27 years and hughe is clean for 49 years and they come all the time and not for money, they do not get paid. They come just to help, that's how I know that there are people out here who really care and just like them I really care about every one of my brothers and sisters in our sickness that we share. I love them all tell the world about these people we can all help let's do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

06/28/2019

I have learned that good leaders use ideas in great leaders steal them that's just the way I've been taught here for real and the people that are around you are who you because from a distance people cannot tell you apart and that never let anyone tell you that you cannot do som**hing if you want it all you have to do is go get it if someone tells you that you can't it is because they gave up on their dreams and that's som**hing I never want you to do. I want to share a little bit about the people around me who are helping me with the changes I am making in myself. We are all a work in progress. First I start with John he's a real knowledgeable man that I need on my team as you all know I want to help and was John to help and knowledge we went to Oprah and some sober living homes in our community that means everyone that lives there is to be clean and sober and they will be around like-minded people and hopefully a rehab John knows his s**t to get grants and he has number one on my team if he can stay clean even one around me will be clean and I will lead by example for just today and I hope every day forever so it shows you and everyone is old dad can change and so can everyone in the world I hope you all know if I wanted I would be high here just like every other time I was locked up before it's not hard but what changed is I have a to-die-for and that's my little girl my princess my baby.I will never let my little girl down again the only way to go from here is up and by saying that I mean a new top where me and my girl is happy and we have our boys back and just know failure is not a choice for me and I know where I go I will always have my baby girl. I miss everyone.

06/25/2019

Your Honor,
I want you to know that I humbly accept all the consequences for the crimes I have committed but I ask that your hear my voice and my plea for help. It seems to me that there is a debate as to whether or not addictíon is a disease. I do not understand the debate at all because in 1953 the AMA and CDC declared addiction a disease. Its characteristics are progressive, incurable and fatal. It's nature is obsessesive and compulsive. The disease hi_jacks the amygdyla where our survival mechanism is, which tells us to breathe, even when we are underwater drowning. It is a very powerful part of our brain. I have been getting locked up for my disease since I was 11 years old. My disease has been treated as a crime or a moral deficiency. I have always accepted responsibility and the consequences for my crimes as I do this time. I just can't help feeling cheated and robbed. I have a disease and this country has known that I have a disease for 66 years and has never offered me treatment or help. They have locked me away. In my disease I do the same thing over and over again expecting different results, which is the definition of Insanity. I feel as though this county is doing the same thing. They are locking people up with the disease of addiction over and over again and expecting som**hing different to happen to me that's insane. I say all this to ask you to do som**hing different and finally give me the help I deserve. This county deserves change and help. If I had diabetes people will be lined up to help me. I beg you not to turn the other way I beg you to acknowledge that I have a disease and please help me, thank you for your valuable time.

Sincerely, Paul Alger

06/25/2019

I am a work in progress! I'm not who I want to be,but I'm striving everyday to get there.

06/25/2019

I'm slowly learning that even if I react it won't change anything. It won't make people suddenly love and respect me, it won't magically change their minds. Sometimes it's better to just let things be, let people go, don't fight for closure, don't ask for explanations, don't chase answers and don't expect people to understand where you're coming from. I'm slowly learning that life is better lived when you don't center in on what's happening around you center it on what's happening inside you instead. Work on yourself and your inner peace.

06/22/2019

02/06/2019

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02/06/2019

For years, I have served playing a part or role so to speak, to the very same problem, I myself fell to. I'm not talking an easy fall either, ya know where mom or a pillow was there to ease the landing, I'm talking a gut clenching, out of nowhere, straight to your knees, painful downward spiraling type of fall. I became the problem without allowing myself to be aware. I finally decided to own that role and be intentional about it. Defrosting The Valley is my mission, hopefully our mission, to give others a taste of what goes on in my(our) mind(s). Maybe some clarification, maybe some familiarity, maybe some understanding, maybe quite a few laughs, hard to really know without knowing, ya know? I have never been scared so no need to start now. Here we are and here this goes.

02/06/2019

Welcome to Defrosting The Valley, what is hopefully the beginning to som**hing much greater than I could ever even hope to start. There will be haters(hate to think there wouldn't be), everyone is welcome. The hate drives most of us, so please let those haters hate ;). There will be second guessers, If you thought about it more than once, then were already accomplishing som**hing, there will be so many different types of people, that's the goal at least. If your sick of falling in the black hole that this county seems to be, or sick of watching yourself or loved ones fall to addictions, crime sprees, anything that CAN be helped if only given that one damn opportunity. This might be a good place to waste some time. I WANT TO MAKE A CHANGE may it be as small as letting you know you do have a voice, or as big as us coming together as a community, to save one another (seeing as how no one else seems to think were worth that.) I'm sick, I'm tired, its exhausting this life we all lead. It started out a choice, but it's not that anymore is it?