01/28/2026
The underpin, the primal rage suppressed for years- as it was shameful to act out, or draw attention to real “disrupt”. Natural deregulation of our nervous system had resorted into intese violence. It divides us, as it is constructed to.
To deny the inner child cones into SO many forms.
To “reserect”- We start saying NO, even when our voice shakes- and our belief of comfort is challenged- but we die in a prescribed box of “safety”-things, false beliefs, abhorrentof the soul, bypassed of/for safety.
And, we say YES when our voice might shake louder, but its vessel has had enough of the ego dissociating, navigating the same dang path of pi**ed to being at the bottom of any “perceived” well.
Ain’t no well lower than your skin color, not by choice.
No humanness.
Visible, persecuted by shear glances alone. Yet, our true souls are underneath. Souls. That’s a lot to unpack. The big secret is, the brain likes patterns, as it will self sabotage what is for you, for a known and less than desired known outcome to feel “in control”. Ego will literally create the dame explosive loop, to proof the pattern… meaning - you act out and resign to what’s familiar through shame…
An endless loop, it can be predicted. Bad/Good= don’t want to lose my comfort of predictably!
Until you’ve literally had enough, and aren’t so scared to trade comfort for “joy”. Which joy is a connection with the sentient of others-Not the segregation. “Things”do not bring, joy.”
This IS the way back home.
Literally, figuratively, and globally.
As a woman, I am white. Therefore, I’m privileged. I’ve worked like a man my whole life, and have not only been paid less, but have been used as an instrument in ways that are dumb founding.
My platform here is about self-realization.
It has no color or species.
What’s happening now in real time is only happening because hurt people won’t get arrested for discharging generational trauma on people. People that “don’t” have lives or exist, sentiently- rather rage that’s buried makes snap decisions, ones you live with and cannot erase.
What we’re experiencing now is abhorrent misuse of power.
From an extremely abused, and wounded individual… which is NULL as a privileged white woman… I’ve never had the threat of my life evaporated, just by existing.
A luxery known only by skin color.
Our own realization of ourselves, doesn’t allow the space for this regime to live. We don’t live here. Yet it’s real.
The internal breakthrough , leads to symbiosis- NO divide. Rather a surge, energy that unites is all.
And, act accordingly.
I know I’m white. I’m a woman who see’s what’s going on.
It’s abhorrent.
My life doesn’t just move “ON”.
My life tries, by full fury example to demonstrate what’s allowed- VS any regime.
As, it’s bu****it.
And, WE know this.