08/12/2016
I have not been writing for months. In April my father passed away. I thought I was prepared, I knew he would pass, I just did not expect the overwhelming sadness I felt until I realized, he is not coming back. I know that sounds a bit naive but, truthfully, I had no idea how I would feel. Every girl thinks their father is the best and I am no different. My father knew who I was and accepted me 100%. He just, simply, was the best man I have known in my life. I am so thankful he was my father.
Everyday has had some reminder of my father. I would buy him doughnuts, he expected them when I would walk through the door. I cannot tell you how much I miss doing that. I miss my phone calls with him, he would ask what i was bringing him that day. He always told me that he loved me . The night that he passed, he told me "I love you very much". It was a beautiful good bye.
The one thing that my father wanted was his family around him and to have his wife with him when he passed. My Mom was the one who found him, he passed in the middle of the night while my Mom was with him. He got his wish , I am so happy that he did get his wish, he deserved it because he was such a kind and giving person. He was home with his family, where he wanted to be. He transitioned with my Mom by his side.
My beautiful father will always be in my heart. I sometimes have dreams about him. I have had three so far and in all my dreams he looked happy, I take that as his way to communicate with me.
I love my father and miss him everyday but I know he is watching over us. We were all so fortunate to have him in our lives.
I love and miss you Papa💜