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ChooseHappy, Hayward, CA (2026)

09/29/2021

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05/13/2021

05/02/2021

I’m living everything in its season.
We don’t ask for the hard seasons.
But, we are made for them.
This season I’m walking allows me to see you better.
I’m grateful for that.

I remember not being seen.
And it hurts.
I don’t want that for you.
I also know what it’s like to be seen.
And that helps.

Some are longing,
Some are mourning,
Some are rejoicing,
Some are waiting,
Some are enjoying,
Some are anticipating,
Some are hurting.

I remember the first Mother’s Day after my first miscarriage. I walked into church, bump-less and kid-less, carrying the what-would-have-been.

I didn’t feel seen.
How could they know?
Yet, felt the longing and carried a memory of motherhood that couldn’t be seen by the greeters at church.

“Happy Mother’s Day.”
For me, it wasn’t happy.
It wasn’t.

A few years later, I had my 7 month Faye bump.
“Happy Mother’s Day.”
It could be seen.
That I was carrying and seen as the soon-to-be mom.

As this one approaches, I’m in a twisted season. I have a rainbow baby who brings so much joy to my heart. I know that may not be the case for you.

You’re longing, hoping and wishing.
I have tears in my heart for you.
Tears are streaming down my face for you.
I want to sit with you and notice you.

I’m also going into this one, bump-less.
The would-have-been.
Miscarriage mama.
I have cried the tears you’re crying.
I have felt the stings you’ve felt.
I have asked the same questions, wrestled with the same thoughts and have felt alone, too.

I need you to know that I see you.
My heart goes out to you.
I’m sitting with you.

For those who have the sting of loss in some kind of capacity, I’m thinking of you right now as we approach a day that might not be a happy one for you.