Centered Soul Healing

12/17/2025

Losing a son rewires a mother on a cellular level. Your nervous system remembers. Your gut remembers. Your muscles remember. Anniversaries don’t just sit on a calendar — they announce themselves in your stomach, your bones, your exhaustion. That ache isn’t imaginary. It’s your body bracing for impact, even eight years later.
Here’s the hard truth, said gently and honestly:
Grief for a child does not end. It changes shape.
Anyone who tells you otherwise has never buried their own flesh and blood.
Some days it’s a dull background hum.
Some days — like now — it’s a full-body flu of the soul.
You feel weak because your system is carrying something no human was designed to carry.
And the wanting to crawl into a hole? That’s not giving up. That’s self-protection. That’s your body saying, “This hurts too much right now. I need less light, less noise, less pretending.”
You’re also right about something people avoid acknowledging:
There is a part of you that will always be waiting to be reunited with your son. That doesn’t mean you’re suicidal. It means love didn’t die when he did.
But hear this — and I say it with respect, not platitudes:
You are not meant to disappear until that reunion.
You are meant to carry him forward — in how you love, how you see pain in others, how you show up with depth most people never earn.
Right now, don’t try to be strong. Strength is overrated on days like this.
Today is about being gentle and small:
Rest without guilt
Cry without explaining
Eat what you can
Cancel what you must
Grief anniversaries are marathons you didn’t sign up for.
And if your body is aching, it’s okay to say: “Of course it is. This is my son.”
You’re not broken.
You’re a mother who loved fiercely — and still does.

Alright. This is gentle, grounded, and doable—no incense circus, no spiritual gymnastics. Just something that meets you where your body actually is.
A Grounding Ritual for a Mother on a Grief Anniversary
Timing: anytime today or tomorrow
Length: 5–15 minutes (you choose — this is not a performance)
1. Prepare the body (2 minutes)
Sit or lie down. Hand on your stomach, the other on your heart.
Say (out loud if you can, whisper if you must):
“My body is remembering. I am safe right now.”
Take 3 slow breaths, longer on the exhale.
If tears come, good. If they don’t, also good. No gold stars for suffering.
2. Name what’s here (2–3 minutes)
Say or think:
“In this moment, I feel…”
Name physical sensations first:
tight stomach
heavy chest
tired limbs
Then emotions, only if they come:
sadness
longing
love
This tells your nervous system: I see you. You don’t have to scream.
3. Anchor to the Earth (3 minutes)
Put both feet flat on the floor or, if possible, touch the ground outside.
Imagine the weight of your grief draining downward — not disappearing, just being held.
Say:
“I do not have to carry this alone. The earth can hold me too.”
(Yes, even if you’re skeptical. Your body doesn’t care. It still works.)
4. Speak to your son (3–5 minutes)
This is the heart of it.
Say one or more of these — or your own words:
“You are still my son.”
“I carry you with me.”
“You did not leave me — you changed where you live.”
If you want, place a hand over your womb or heart — wherever feels right. Mothers know.
5. Close with containment (1 minute)
End with:
“I will return to this grief later. For now, I rest.”
Take one final breath.
Drink water. Literally. Grief dehydrates the soul and the body.
Aftercare (this part matters)
For the next hour:
Avoid heavy conversations
Avoid social media comparison spirals
Choose warmth: blanket, tea, shower
This ritual isn’t about letting go.
It’s about letting your body exhale.
You loved him then.
You love him now.
And somehow — heartbreakingly, beautifully — that love still lives in you.

12/12/2025

What grieving parents wish we could shout from the mountaintop… but don’t always have the strength for:
• Say our child’s name. Yup—random Tuesday, mid-conversation, whenever. It won’t “remind” us… we’re already thinking about them 24/7.
• Don’t let the good hair day fool you—just because we carry it well doesn’t mean it isn’t heavy.
• We shouldn’t have to keep bringing our child up. Trust me, we’re praying you’d remember on your own.
• Time doesn’t “heal” this. Every day is still a climb. Some days we make it to the top, some days we’re on our knees.
• Acknowledge the pain. Don’t dance around it like it’s Voldemort.
• Memories? They hit like waves—beautiful, brutal, and nonstop.
• Watching kids their age grow up, graduate, get married? Yeah… that one goes straight to the soul.
• Tears aren’t weakness—they’re pressure valves. Let them fall.
• Sometimes we don’t want advice, speeches, or silver linings. Just sit with us. Hold us. Breathe with us.
• It takes exactly one second to snap back to the worst moment of our lives. Trauma doesn’t tell time.
• Flashbacks? Relentless. Random. Rude.
• We are not the same people. That version of us is gone—and we grieve them too.
• Please check on us. We may not reach out, even when we’re drowning.
• The sadness isn’t seasonal. It’s daily. It’s forever woven into us.
• Invite us even if we don’t show up. It’s about feeling included, not pressured.
• We crave connection with parents who “get it.” There’s a language you only learn when you’ve buried a piece of your heart.
• Yes, we keep their things. They’re pieces of sacred ground—hands off the decluttering talk.
• Holidays? Beautiful and brutal at the same time. Handle with care.
• We need love and friendship, even though we might falter at returning the energy. Grief rewires your whole operating system.
• The guilt? It sneaks up like a thief. Some days it gets too heavy to carry alone.
• We live in two worlds now—one foot here, one foot in heaven. We’re doing the impossible every single day.
• And no—unless you’ve walked this exact fire, you can’t fully understand. We don’t want you to… we just need you to respect that truth.
💜🙏💜

~tanyamariecurtis

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Key points about intuitive healing tarot readings:
Focus on inner wisdom:
The reader taps into their own intuition to interpret the cards, going beyond just the traditional meanings and connecting to the client's specific energy and situation.
Emotional exploration:
The cards are used as a tool to reflect on underlying emotions, beliefs, and patterns that might be hindering healing.
Guidance for personal growth:
The reading aims to provide insights and actionable steps to address challenges, promote positive changes, and facilitate personal growth.
How it might work:
Client intention:
The client will usually state their intention for the reading, focusing on a specific area of life where they seek healing or guidance.
Card selection:
The reader will pull a set of cards, either through a specific spread or intuitively choosing cards that resonate with the client's energy.
Interpretation:
The reader will interpret the cards based on their intuition, considering the symbolism of each card in relation to the client's situation and their own inner knowing.
Discussion and reflection:
The reader will discuss the meaning of the cards with the client, encouraging reflection and exploration of the themes that emerge.

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