Find Love Within

11/15/2025

11/10/2025

11/03/2025

It's extremely rare to see two people in a relationship for the pure expansion of human consciousness, but when you do, the magnetic energy they emanate is nothing short of holy.

Most people use relationships as coping mechanisms. They haven't grieved something from their past and instead of confronting their inner world they grasp outwards, sometimes clinging to whatever object their hands find.

Anytime a relationship (or friendship) is used as a form of escapism, it slows down your path and eventually causes chaos in your field.

Holy relationships, or friendships, emerge through radical self honesty. When two people are willing to not only open their hearts to one another, but to source itself, the connection becomes a transmission for elevated consciousness to enter through. This creates a prism effect, where the light their fields emit cascades farther into the collective. Connection has the potential to unroot human consciousness from the medieval/dark ages of consciousness, bringing it closer to an age of divinity.

Often, people go into relationships by way of hiding themselves, pretending to be that which they are not. This produces a subtle tension throughout the relationship that resorts in blame/shame tactics which turn a once romantic connection into a battle with the "enemy".

The ego subconsciously wants an enemy to cast its shadow upon. This way the ego doesn't have to take responsibility for its own path. The incapacity to take responsibility for the path you walk is a mode of living in denial.

In a holy connection, both parties take full responsibility for their shortcomings and calmly grow into healthier states of consciousness. Relationships, friendships, can be one of the most powerful catalysts for metaphysical growth, so long as both people are willing to look at themselves.

When I see two people who are raw and vulnerable with one another, who are unafraid to delve into their shadows without casting blame or shame onto eachother during this fragile yet powerful process, I see incredible potential for humanity.

Here is to the power of connection. ♡

~Mary Allison
Artist: Facebook

Empower Wholeness Intimacy

10/25/2025

10/13/2025

You can care deeply for someone and still lose yourself trying to love them into growth.

When love turns into constant repair, it stops being love.

Healing begins when you accept that someone’s growth isn’t your responsibility and their avoidance isn’t yours to fix.

10/08/2025

Yesterday, I forced myself to close every open loop.

That same action led to:

3 difficult conversations
2 apologies I'd been avoiding
1 friendship I thought was over - saved

Here's the thing nobody talks about:

The real reason you're tired all the time isn't your workload.

It's your open loops.

The text you haven't answered.
The apology you owe.
The decision you're avoiding.
The conversation you keep postponing.

These run in the background of your mind all day, draining your battery.

But here's what I discovered:

We keep loops open because closing them feels riskier than the exhaustion.

Sending the text means getting rejected.
Making the apology means admitting we were wrong.
Having the conversation means potential conflict.

So we choose exhaustion over vulnerability.

We'd rather be tired than uncomfortable.

The best part? I didn't have to be perfect.

I simply sent imperfect messages and had awkward conversations.

Close your loops. Watch your energy return.

Mental clutter is more exhausting than physical work ever will be.

PS: The friendship I saved? We're meeting for coffee next week.

09/28/2025

I said one night that life felt heavy.
Too heavy.
Like carrying something I couldn’t put down,
but couldn’t explain either.
I said I didn’t know my dream,
didn’t know what I wanted,
didn’t even know who I was anymore.

It wasn’t a dramatic moment.
No tears, no silence breaking in half.
Just me rambling again,
letting words spill into the air,
the way I do when the quiet feels too loud.
The way I do when I’m trying to convince myself
I still make sense.

And then you said something so simple,
I almost missed it.
Like it slipped in through the side door
while I wasn’t looking.
But when it landed,
the world slowed just enough
for me to notice.

“You are gentle and kind.
Thoughtful and sweet.
You like ice cream.
And you love the color of the sunset,
not orange,
just the orange in a sunset.”

I laughed at first,
because how could that be an answer?
I wanted something bigger,
something that sounded like a revelation.
But then I realized,
you weren’t answering the question I asked.
You were answering the question underneath it.
The one I didn’t know how to say out loud.
Who am I?

And somehow,
you reminded me I didn’t need
to know the whole map of my life.
Not the grand plan.
Not the purpose I kept chasing.
Maybe it was enough
to be seen in the little things,
the soft things,
the pieces of me I’d forgotten were still mine.

It’s strange,
how someone naming you in fragments
can feel more whole
than you’ve felt in years.
How being reminded of ice cream and sunsets
can hold more truth
than all the answers you’ve been reaching for.

I don’t know my dream yet.
I don’t know who I’ll be tomorrow.
But for a moment, I knew who I was.
Not because I figured it out,
but because someone else saw it,
clear enough to hand it back to me.

That someone could name me
when I couldn’t name myself.
That someone could find me
even when I thought I was lost.

And for the first time in a long time,
that felt like an answer.
And that felt like enough.

I hope one day someone says it to you too.
I hope you have someone who reminds you of the little things,
the small and ordinary truths that are already yours.
I hope it makes you smile,
the way the orange in sunsets does.
And I hope it feels like enough,
the way you already are.

08/05/2025

Self-abandonment happens when we reject, suppress, or ignore our own needs, emotions, and intuition to maintain attachment, gain approval, or avoid pain.

Common Symptoms & Behaviors of Self-Abandonment

- Fear of rejection or being "too much"
- Over-dependency in relationships
- People-pleasing to avoid disconnection
- Chronic anxiety in intimacy
- Sabotaging closeness (before they leave me, I leave them)
- Ignoring your feelings or intuition
- Overriding your boundaries for others
- Harsh inner critic, perfectionism
- Suppressing the desire to be accepted
- Seeking worth only externally

Root Wound:
"I must disconnect from myself to be loved."

07/25/2025