02/08/2026
Qween, are you open?đź’›
I know I’m no longer moving with God when my brow tightens,
when my body holds tension,
when my thoughts start teaching instead of trusting.
It’s when my perspective slips just beyond the light,
just beyond understanding…
and prayer begins to sound like frustration instead of communion.
I feel unseen.
Unheard.
Unappreciated.
Even though I’ve been doing all the things,
considering all the people,
trying to get everything right.
And in those moments, everything feels wrong.
That’s when I notice it:
I’m no longer seeing the goodness that is God.
I’ve filled the scope of my vision with myself.
And that’s where I receive the Whisper.
The nudge.
The quiet revelation.
This isn’t even about God…
seeking Him,
trusting Him,
pleasing Him,
being thankful to Him.
It’s about me.
And when I see that clearly,
I don’t perform my way out of it,
I pause.
I release the need to be right,
understood, or validated.
And I return, not to effort,
But to alignment.
I share this because I know
I’m not the only one who has reached
this place.
Not the only one whose body knows before
the heart has caught up.
Not the only one who has mistaken effort
for alignment.
So, if you notice it too:
the tension,
the urgency,
the narrowing of your vision…
pause there.
That pause is invitation.
This work is precious to me because it
keeps me honest.
Because intimacy begins where self-focus ends.
And it grows when we learn to notice
What draws us closer
And what quietly pulls us away.
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February 9th, I’ll be opening a small,
intentional space to practice this way of
returning.