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Freedom From Bondage Freedom from Bo***ge of self, Bo***ge of addiction, This IS NOT a CA website. I am, however an active CA member.

This page is used to discuss recovery issues and/or Big Book Discussion(what saved my life), and this page is not meant for a bunch of euphoric recall. In addition, some posts may be purely opinionated. Personally, if it ain't in the big book of AA, then it's not been proven as a means of recovery material, therefore not true. Please ask any questions you may have concerning recovery!

01/19/2026

When he asked her to bend hospital rules and take in an alcoholic, she did not pause. She placed him in the flower room, the quiet space where bodies sometimes rested before being taken to the morgue.

It was August 16, 1939. Sister Ignatia Gavin worked the admissions desk at St. Thomas Hospital in Akron, Ohio. She was small, gentle in voice, and easily overlooked as she moved through the corridors.

But when Dr. Bob Smith came to her for help, everything changed.

Hospitals in 1939 were strict. If you were injured, they treated you. If you had pneumonia, they admitted you. But if your illness was alcohol, you were turned away.

Alcoholism was viewed as a moral weakness, not a medical condition. Hospitals feared chaos, unpaid care, and trouble. So the doors stayed closed.

Dr. Bob Smith, a surgeon who had battled drinking himself, knew this pain well. By 1935, he and Bill Wilson had founded Alcoholics Anonymous. One alcoholic helping another, one day at a time.

Still, meetings were not enough for those deep in withdrawal. When bodies shook and minds unraveled, people needed medical care. A bed. Supervision through the worst hours.

No hospital would provide it.

Dr. Bob believed Sister Ignatia might. One summer day in 1939, he asked her directly.

She considered him. Considered the rules. Considered what refusing would mean.

“Bring him in,” she said.

That day, the first alcoholic patient was admitted. Officially, the diagnosis was acute gastritis, which was true enough. Years of drinking had destroyed his stomach.

There were no open beds.

So she placed him in the flower room. A small, private space meant for bouquets and sometimes used to hold the dead.

It was not comfortable. But it was shelter. And it was compassion.

That single decision made St. Thomas Hospital the first institution in the world to treat alcoholism as a medical illness.

Word traveled quietly. There was a place that would not turn you away. A nun who looked beyond trembling hands and clouded eyes.

Men arrived shattered. Careers gone. Families broken. Hope spent.

Sister Ignatia greeted them all the same way. Calm. Direct. Without judgment or fear.

Soon, the flower room could no longer hold them. She persuaded the hospital to give her a ward. It became known as Rosary Hall.

It was modest. A handful of beds. A coffee pot that was never allowed to run empty. She insisted on that.

Yet it was not the coffee that saved them. It was her presence.

She stayed with patients through sweats, shaking, and panic. She did not coddle them. She asked hard questions.

“Are you ready to change?”

If they said yes, she walked with them. If they relapsed, she welcomed them back.

When someone completed treatment, she gave them a small Sacred Heart medallion.

“This is your promise,” she told them. “Keep it while you remain sober. If you plan to drink again, bring it back to me first.”

Before entering a bar, they would have to face her. Speak honestly. Many said that medal alone kept them from drinking. They could not bear to let her down.

Dr. Bob died in 1950. Sister Ignatia did not stop.

In 1952, she opened another ward in Cleveland. She demanded a proper coffee bar. When administrators objected, she told them they could abandon the project entirely.

They agreed.

Estimates suggest she personally aided about 15,000 people in recovery and supported nearly 60,000 family members through programs she helped establish.

She never claimed credit. She said the work belonged to the people themselves.

In 1961, President John F. Kennedy wrote to thank her. Illness forced her retirement in 1965. She died the following year at seventy seven.

Her funeral was filled with men who had once slept in that flower room. Men who had met her gaze at their lowest point and discovered hope.

Today, addiction is recognized as a disease. Treatment centers are everywhere.

But it began with one woman who chose mercy over policy.

When people reach the bottom, we can turn away or step closer.

Sister Ignatia always stepped closer.

01/19/2026

Alcohol culture has a term for people who can drink massive amounts without showing it:

"Professional drinker."

Like it's a skill.
Like it's something to be proud of.

"I can drink anyone under the table."
"Alcohol goes down like water for me."
"I got paid to party."

I used to say all of that.

I used to brag about drinking 30-50 shots and still functioning.

Bartenders who drank with customers all night and couldn't remember a thing.

Lawyers who went home and drowned in Jack Daniels.

Liver transplant surgeons who installed new livers in patients...
Then went home and destroyed their own.

All of us?
"Professional drinkers."

But here's what nobody tells you:
Being good at drinking alcohol isn't a real thing.

In fact, the person who's BEST at drinking alcohol is the one who drinks little to none.

The people with the best tolerance are the ones who get buzzed from smelling liquor.

The people who can't fathom more than one or two drinks?
They're the ones who are actually good at it.

Because alcohol isn't meant to get you drunk.

That's what happens when you start overdosing on a neurotoxin.

Blackouts aren't supposed to happen.

That's not "the point."

That's what happens when you officially overdose on the drug.

So when you say you're a "professional drinker"...
What you're actually saying is:

"I've poisoned myself so consistently that my body adapted to survive higher doses."

That's not a flex.
That's a warning sign.

But millions of people identify this way.

Bartenders.
Lawyers.
Doctors.
Construction workers.
Sales reps.
CEOs.

People who take pride in their tolerance.

People who brag about their capacity.

People who built an identity around being able to handle it.

And I get it.

I was one of them.

I wore "professional drinker" like a badge of honor.

Until I realized:
The only thing I was professional at was slowly killing myself while looking functional.

So if you've ever called yourself a professional drinker...
If you've ever bragged about your tolerance...
If you've ever been proud of how much you can handle...

Ask yourself:
What are you actually proud of?

Because being good at poisoning yourself
Isn't the achievement you think it is.

01/13/2026

Oldtimer said, "God's grace is more than sufficient for addicts and alcoholics suffering under the lash of King Addiction .
This mad tyrant would have us pursue the peace and comfort we seek, but never find, in the bottle,pipe,pill,line,needle,etc.. Initially, we found the magic, but it lasted only for a night. The next day we commenced the fruitless task all over again—a task that became ever more difficult as we descended ever deeper into the depths of the addictive pit with each drink or drug we took.

God's grace delivers us to a life more abundant than any we had ever imagined. Every day we wake up sober, we are overpaid. We have escaped the fatal finality of an illness that claims the lives of thousands of addicts and alcoholics everyday. With this realization, we fully comprehend the slogan, "There but for the grace of God go I." For we have been blessed with a way of life that will always return to us more than we put into it. This is more than the fair share of life we were always clamoring for in our using and drinking days.

We need God. We want everything else. When we put away our bottomless want cups and replace them with our need cup, we find our cup truly overflows. All we have to do is stay on the proven path of recovery that has delivered recovery to millions of alcoholics and addicts who were once as spiritually bankrupt as we were.

We won't always have the motivation to move forward on the path of recovery, but we must remain pointed in the right direction. Sometimes, standing still is the best we can do. And even then, God continues to bless us with His abundance by providing us with the motivation we need to move forward once again.

His grace is a never-ending flow that only we have the power to stop. When we give in to our self-centered impulses and begin manipulating life in order to achieve that which we desire, we have turned away from God and determined His grace is insufficient. But as soon as we regain our willingness to pursue the vision of His will for us, we begin to get results.

Patience is one of the fruits of recovery. When we want what we want when we want it, our impatience outpaces God's will, and we outrun the care and protection His grace affords. Without God's power in our lives, we fall prey, once again, to the seductive and destructive power of drugs and alcohol.

But for the grace of the Twelve Steps, with which God so blessed the sick and suffering alcoholic/addict, we would remain in need of salvation from the mad tyrant King Addiction—an equal opportunity destroyer who takes everything from us and leaves us with nothing. Where God guides, He provides, and so long as we stay close to Him and perform His work well, He provides what we need, when we need it, and how we need it. And when we remove barriers to His grace, it flows into our lives in great abundance."

01/06/2026

THE VICTORY OF SURRENDER

We perceive that only through utter defeat are we able to take our first steps toward liberation and strength. Our admissions of personal powerlessness finally turn out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 21

When alcohol and or drugs influenced every facet of my life, when pipes and bottles became the symbol of all my self indulgence and permissiveness, when I came to realize that, by myself, I could do nothing to overcome the power of drugs and alcohol, I realized I had no recourse except surrender. In surrender I found victory—victory over my selfish self-indulgence, victory over my stubborn resistance to life as it was given to me. When I stopped fighting anybody or anything, I started on the path to sobriety, serenity and peace.

From the book Daily Reflections.
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All rights reserved.

12/29/2025

Oldtimer said, "AA offers us the highest order of teachings about the role our feelings play in our lives. Resentment isn't based solely on anger. Anger is the most powerful emotion we experience, but we resend many other emotions from the past to the present. Thus, we struggle with living one day at a time. We emote our way through life and base our perception of the world on our feelings.

Emotionally, we center our lives on the past. Whenever someone, something, or some situation pushes our emotional buttons, our mind retreats to the past to find a similar situation and presents us with a response based on that past experience. We are in full flight from reality, and if we always do what we always did, we will always get what we always got.

Now we have a set of spiritual tools that help us ground our lives in the present. When agitated or doubtful, we apply these tools to our feelings and manufacture a desirable result that insures our peace of mind and our sobriety. For this task we rely upon the Resentment Prayer: "This is a sick person. How can I be helpful to them. God save me from being angry. Thy will be done."

When we accept the person who agitated us as spiritually sick, we see them as an equal, for we too are spiritually sick. This is understanding. We then seek to be helpful to them in the same manner we would help a sick friend. We are tolerant and patient with them, for they know not that they are spiritually sick, but we do. This is love. We then pray to God to take away our disturbing emotions that now block us off from Him and His will, and ask that He reveal His specific will for us in this particular instance. Thy will, not mine, be done. This is wisdom.

A life run on emotions is a life in full flight from reality. When we run on self-will, we cannot live life successfully sober. As we employ the Steps to address our emotional maladies, we grow spiritually, and the actions of others have less of an impact on our perception of life. We are then free from enslavement to our emotional nature and can act upon our emotions and nurture our spiritual life.

When we live God's way of life, we are grounded in reality and in less danger of excitement, fear, anger, worry, self-pity, or foolish decisions. Our unmanageable life becomes manageable, and our lives become incredibly more wonderful as time passes."

12/27/2025

Oldtimer said, "Until the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of changing, we will not change. Alcoholics and addicts hold onto what we should let go of, and let go of what we should hold on to. Pain is the taproot of our spiritual growth because we cling far too tightly to that which destroys our spirit simply because it brings us physical or psychological pleasure."

Living by the pleasure principle retards our spiritual growth. To the addict/ alcoholic ego, it feels good to be right. In fact, we would rather be right than happy, and far too often we choose death rather than accept we were wrong about alcohol,drugs or both. This is the unfortunate consequence of our insanity. We can't see and act on the truth about ddiction to drugs alcohol or both . So we commit su***de on the installment plan one hit, drink,pill,line,needle,blunt at a time.

Happiness is a byproduct of right living, and living by spiritual principles is the right choice for us who desire to live long and happily in this world. The spiritual principles of the steps prescribes as a remedy for our fatal malady require us to admit our wrongs. In doing so, we reduce our pride and grow in humility.

Humility is accepting the truth without trying to outsmart it. Humiliation happens when the truth is forced upon us. When this happens, we are weakened. When we accept the truth about ourselves, we are empowered by God. Humility provides us with a power so great that no weapon formed against us will prosper. In every situation, we receive a blessing or a lesson that becomes a blessing.

It is hard to stumble when you are on your knees. This makes it difficult to belittle the humble, for they know who they are and Whose they are. The value of humility is priceless to the alcoholic/addict whose salvation lies in the growth and maintenance of a spiritual life. It allows us to accept our shortcomings and transform our pain into spiritual growth.

As we accept the truth about our character defects, our teachable spirit arises within us, and this allows us to prosper from even the most negative situations in our lives, past and present. In this way, our past becomes our most valuable treasure, and the present becomes the foundation upon which we build a bright future rooted in the truth of our existence.

There is no shame in the game for those humble enough to accept their humanity, flaws and all. The proud are image-conscious people. They are overly concerned with what others think of them. This fear opens them up to anger, greed, gluttony, envy, lust, and sloth. They are forever trying to arrange their life to cover their flaws and present themselves in a positive light. They have little need for a Higher Power, for in their world there is none higher than themselves.

The humble accept their flaws, for they know their weakness avails them God's perfect strength and the grace and glory that flow from this divine relationship. They seek the truth, rather than distort it to fit their image. And in their pursuit of the truth, they let go of what is not of God and embrace that within themselves which empowers their spiritual growth.

We need only be willing to let go of our defects of character and let God become the center of our lives. In this way, we become agents for God, the One who has all the power we need to transform our hearts and minds and bring us freedom from our fatal obsession with drugs and or alcohol."

12/12/2025
12/09/2025

Oldtimer said, "Insanity is sometimes defined as doing the same thing over again and expecting different results. While true in general, the insanity of the addict/alcoholic involves our inability to think rationally, logically, and with reason when it comes to the risk/reward element of the first drink,drug or both. We are mentally incapacitated when it comes to drugs and alcohol. We cannot see and act on the truth about the drink or the drug. This leads to a full flight from reality that brings about several different levels of insanity.

However, it is the first level of insanity that is paramount to our continued existence. It is a lack of sound reasoning that involves our pathological drinking or using An alcoholic/addict suffers grave consequences as a result of their insistence upon using drugs, alcohol or both to a lethal degree. Yet, in spite of the risk, we pursue the pleasure of the first one to the gates of insanity and death.

In the mind of the chronic alcoholic/addict the power of delusion takes over, and we deny the very obvious damage caused by our addiction. This blindness to reality is broken only when we face a crisis that our mind cannot rationalize, justify, minimize, hide, or evade. This is when the First Step review, conducted with rigorous honesty, becomes a stepping stone to a new way of life.

After we have put away the bottle,pipe,line,pill,needle, we are confronted with a greater delusion: the delusion that we can wrest satisfaction and happiness out of this world by following the dictates of the same mind that believed using and or drinking was a solution to our living problem. In our Second Step review, we find that it was self—our old ideas, emotions, and attitudes—that defeated us. They form the thinking that constantly leads us back to the DOC .

This self-defeating cycle can only be broken by turning our will and life over to a Power greater than human power and keeping our minds under constant review. By doing so, we avoid repeating mistakes that create an environment within us that requires a drink to satisfy. It is this second level of insanity, where we do the same thing over again (self-will) expecting a different result, that we spend the rest of our recovery life exploring.

We employ inventory, prayer, and meditation to uncover, discover, and discard the self-defeating behaviors that are guaranteed to lead us back to the bottle,hit,pill,needle and replace them with a new set of behaviors based on the new ideas, emotions, and attitudes that come as a result of a spiritual awakening. This new mind is rooted in the Sunlight of the Spirit and delivers us from drugs,alcohol or both and opens us to a new way of life that gets infinitely more wonderful as time passes."

12/08/2025

SERVICE

Life will take on new meaning. To watch people recover, to see them help others, to watch loneliness vanish, to see a fellowship grow up about you, to have a host of friends—this is an experience you must not miss. . . . Frequent contact with newcomers and with each other is the bright spot of our lives.
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 89

It is through service that the greatest rewards are to be found. But to be in a position of offering true, useful and effective service to others, I must first work on myself. This means that I have to abandon myself to God, admitting my faults and clearing away the wreckage of my past. Work on myself has taught me how to find the necessary peace and serenity to successfully merge inspiration and experience. I have learned how to be, in the truest sense, an open channel of sobriety.

From the book Daily Reflections.
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All rights reserved.

12/01/2025

Oldtimer said, "When we adopt God's way of life as our own, we recover from a hopeless state of mind and body and are given the power to help other addicts and alcoholics recover from a fatal malady. We are not cured of alcoholism/addiction. Instead, we are granted a daily reprieve. So long as we continue to clean house, trust God, and help others, we will recoil from drugs,alcohol or both as from a hot flame. This is the miracle of recovery. We are granted mastery over addiction
as a result of our surrender to our benevolent Master."

We have identified the weak items in our characters that corrode our relationship with our Creator. It is our selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear that block our spiritual connection to God—a connection we can't do without if we expect to live long and happily in this world.

Every day is a day we deconstruct our alcoholic/addict life and reconstruct a new life based upon spiritual principles. By working with God to discard what we have uncovered and discovered, the manifestations of self no longer fit into our new life in recovery. In doing so, we become a channel for God's grace and allow for the unlimited expansion of our spiritual life.

If nothing changes, nothing changes. Our level of willingness to let go of our shortcomings will determine our level of spiritual growth. The greater our spiritual fitness the more effective we become at understanding how our defects of character bedeviled us and kept us chained to the old behaviors we developed in our addict/alcoholic life.

Step Ten prepares us for Step Eleven by decreasing our connection to our old ideas, emotions, and attitudes, and increasing our connection with God. Step Eleven prepares us to fit God's will and connects us to the power we need to recover and carry the message to the sick and suffering alcoholic/addict. This is the maximum service we fit ourselves to perform when we continue to clean house, trust God, and help others.

11/24/2025

For a seed to mature into a tree, it must first grow roots. Tiny fibers sprout from the seed and descend into the soil where they can access essential nutrients and life-giving water.( His roots grasped new soil BB ) As the sapling grows above the ground, the roots below must expand in proportion. (Roots act as an underground storage tank to aid the tree when water is scarce.) Although most roots are unseen, they are invaluable to a tree’s ability to thrive.

In the same way, our spiritual roots provide stability. They enable us to grow, mature, and eventually become beautiful displays of God’s splendor.

What about you? Are you developing deep roots?Are we developing strong spiritual roots, or are we simply gathering what we can near the surface of our lives (experiencing Sunday worship services or just going to meetings,stopped or not being of service, not working with others , taking them through the work , listening to Christian music)?....Lord, show me where I have grown complacent or stopped growing in my faith journey, and prepare me for every life-storm that may be heading my way. Amen.

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