01/01/2026
✨Remembering✨
I’ve felt God’s presence multiple times. Call it Divine Love, Shiva, Saraswati, Lakshmi, Nature, Moon Sun and Stars
It was the pull I felt in my third year of undergrad to join the Peace Corps
The pull I felt to move to Morocco and start again
The pull I felt to accept the position in the Democratic Republic of the Congo
The pull I felt to tell my mother to not go to the Dominican Republic of the Congo where she would consequently break her leg
The unattachment of non duality in my Somatics training in Portugal
The burning in my sacral chakra in my attunement in India
The premonitions and answered prayers of discernment in my dying marriage
The tingling sensation at the crown of my head when I was being prayed over at a retreat
The signs and presence I felt while praying and crying inside my car
No one told me that these ultimate layers would be the most painful
Nothing to flashy or overly standing out
But the slow dying friendships that I’ve sensed losing their spark over the years
The mirroring that people show you exactly who they are
The gratitude and grace of allowing it to shed
While my own uterus was physically shedding under surgery
The calls I made that never had the return back
The last outreaches I attempted
And the ones that came surprisingly in ways I had prayed for but never imagined
These are the last layers to shed in the year of the snake
As we are rapping up the last part of the cycles in tune with the actual 13 months of nature and honor spring as the official new year
I recognize that I am in a tender season. I don’t need answers yet.
My body has been holding pain for a long time.
This surgery opened the door but it didn’t finish the story.
Not every deep connection is meant to be carried forward.
Some are meant to wake us up.
I’m thankful to remember that it’s a privilege to wake up
It takes strength to rise.
Thank you God for the evidence over hope.🤍