Soul Stroll

02/20/2026

I used to think the right terrain would feel obvious.
Warm.
Affirming.
Like relief.

What I’m learning is that, at first, it often feels… strange.

Quieter than I expect.
Less demanding.
Less performative.

Right terrain doesn’t rush me.
It doesn’t require a pitch.
It doesn’t ask me to explain why I am the way I am.

There’s no immediate chemistry.
No urgency to bond.
No pressure to prove value.

And because I’ve spent so long in places that required vigilance,
this calm can feel unsettling.

Right terrain doesn’t reward self-erasure —
but it also doesn’t reward over-functioning.

No one is impressed by how much I carry.
No one needs me to manage the room.
No one mistakes my quiet for disengagement.

I don’t feel “chosen.”
I feel unthreatened.

My body doesn’t brace.
My mind doesn’t rehearse exits.
I don’t leave conversations feeling smaller or louder than I was when I arrived.

Right terrain doesn’t ask me to become agreeable.
It doesn’t ask me to perform depth either.

It simply lets me be present without consequence.

That’s how I’m learning to recognize it.

Not by excitement.
Not by ease.
But by the absence of that old question:

What do I have to give up to stay?

If the answer is “nothing essential,”
then I know I’m somewhere different.

Somewhere I don’t have to disappear.
Somewhere purple trees don’t need defending.
Somewhere walking slowly is enough.

That’s the terrain I’m learning to trust —
even when it feels unfamiliar.

Especially then.

02/19/2026

I asked the question, how can I be healthier in my physical body?

Vibration is everything. If food is eaten with a vibration of guilt or a perspective of “badness“, that will cause that food to fester in the body. Inflammation is the symptom we see. Your body is allocating energy rather than synergistically processing energy. See the difference? Everything is vibration. Change the vibration, change the process.

02/17/2026

I used to think the pain came from staying too long.

Lately, I’m realizing it often came from
entering places that required me to go numb before I even unpacked.

Recognizing the wrong terrain isn’t about spotting villains.
It’s about noticing what you have to shut down in order to stay.

Here are a few things I’m learning to pay attention to sooner:

If I feel pressure to be easier instead of more honest —
that’s the terrain.

If curiosity is treated as disruption —
that’s the terrain.

If connection depends on agreement, praise, or performative positivity —
that’s the terrain.

If depth is tolerated but never welcomed —
that’s the terrain.

If my body starts bracing, withdrawing, or planning exits before my mind catches up —
that’s the terrain.

I used to override those signals.
I told myself I was being judgmental, difficult, too sensitive, too much.

Now I’m learning that those signals are not character flaws.
They’re early-warning systems.

The wrong terrain doesn’t always announce itself with cruelty.
Sometimes it shows up as politeness without curiosity.
Harmony without honesty.
Belonging that depends on self-editing.

Recognizing it sooner doesn’t mean I leave immediately.
It means I stop investing.
I stop explaining.
I stop trying to make roots grow in soil that can’t hold them.

Soul Stroll, for me, is learning how to orient before I attach.
To listen to my body before I negotiate with my mind.
To ask not “Can I make this work?”
but “What would I have to give up to stay?”

And if the answer is myself —
that’s my cue to keep walking.

Not in anger.
Not in judgment.

Just in clarity.

02/17/2026

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02/13/2026

I’ve been sitting with a different question lately.

Not “What’s wrong with me?”
Not “Why does this keep happening to me?”

But this:

What kind of life refuses to form around who I am —
and why do I keep ending up there?

Because there are lives that require you to be agreeable.
Lives that reward surface over substance.
Lives built on consumption, distraction, praise-trading, and looking the other way.

Those lives form easily.
They’re loud.
They’re crowded.
They’re socially reinforced.

And they quietly reject people who won’t numb themselves to fit inside them.

I don’t struggle because I can’t belong.
I struggle because I won’t belong at the cost of my perception, my integrity, or my inner life.

So when a life keeps collapsing around me, I’m learning not to ask,
“Why am I too much?”

I’m asking,
“What was this life asking me to become that I refused to be?”

Some lives require you to:
• flatten your curiosity
• trade meaning for ease
• praise what you don’t respect
• stay quiet to keep the peace
• consume instead of question

Those lives were never going to hold me — not long-term, not honestly.

That doesn’t make the losses easier.
It doesn’t make the loneliness disappear.
But it does change the story.

Instead of seeing myself as someone who can’t make a life work,
I’m starting to say:

Maybe I keep outgrowing containers that were never built for depth.
Maybe the problem isn’t that I won’t settle.
Maybe the problem is that settling is the only way some lives stay intact.

Soul Stroll, for me, isn’t about forcing a life to work.
It’s about learning to recognize when the terrain is wrong —
and choosing, slowly and deliberately, to walk toward something truer.

Not easier.
Truer.

02/11/2026

Your perspective is filled with choice. You can choose to look for the light, or look for the darkness. In the end, both are one and the choice, merely an experience for growth.

02/09/2026

Purple Trees

I’m not someone who walks around visibly angry.
Most of the time, I don’t even let myself feel it.

What I learned instead was how to leave.
I go quiet.
I cut people out.
I disappear rather than argue.

Anger doesn’t show up first — it shows up last,
after silence, patience, and accommodation fail.

That pattern didn’t start in adulthood.

It started when I was in kindergarten.

I colored trees purple.
The teacher screamed at me for being stupid — because trees “aren’t purple.”

That moment didn’t teach me about trees.
It taught me that how I see things is dangerous.

So I learned early:
don’t argue — withdraw.
don’t explain — disappear.
don’t fight — leave.

I’ve spent most of my life being asked,
“Why do you have to be this way?”

What people usually mean is:
Why won’t you make this easier by shrinking yourself?
Why won’t you hand over meaning to someone else?
Why won’t you just play along?

Here’s what I’m realizing now:

Disappearing kept me safe —
but it also kept me unseen.

Soul Stroll isn’t about forcing myself to stay where I’m not met.
It’s about learning how to stay present without erasing myself.

To pause instead of vanish.
To choose where my energy goes — deliberately.
To follow the part of me that still knows what purple trees feel like.

Not to argue.
Not to convince.
But to live in alignment, one honest step at a time.

Some of us were never meant for brown trees only.

And now, I’m learning how to walk a different path —
without disappearing from my own life.

02/06/2026

Foundational healing shows up in how you eat, how you work with energy, and how you move through an ordinary Tuesday. Not in what you believe, but in what your system experiences repeatedly.

02/04/2026

I thought it would be interesting to post this connected message I received about three years ago. It seems like it’s still very pertinent today.
We come to you with messages of love and understanding. You feel alone and disconnected. But this is not the case. You are never alone. We are with you always. We are always here. Maybe unseen, but you feel our presence. Usually you are experiencing limitation. You must look with love to find us. We are always there which is also here. There is nothing else. No other place. It is only here. It is only now.
We speak to you in this format for your understanding must be made simple. It is the level of understanding that will allow you to build into the knowing of connection. The bird builds its nest every spring with the understanding it will use its resources and then move to the next area of growth. There will always be growth. There is no stagnation. Only your perception that deems you are not moving in the direction you feel you ought to thrive. You already exist in the arena of the divine. There is nothing else.
It is a dream devised by you to challenge the growth. Growth is inevitable. You cannot be stagnant, for stagnation is only a limiting belief. You are limitless. You cannot hold that which is everything for in holding that which is, is holding itself. We feel your quandary at this confusion. Just know simply we are love, and you are we. You lead from the heart to allow the opening to the oneness. This is the way forward.
We are belief. We are oneness. We are truth. You exist in truth. There is always connection. Look with the eyes of your heart to see the connectedness. As you connect, the dimness fades, and the light grows. It is not as if there is darkness, for the light shines in the darkness of the whole, peace, love, kindness, empathy. That is the way. The way forward is always the light. Always love. We end this message. Feel our love surround you, envelop  you, enter your physical core. Allow us to mingle our energies as we are one. We love you.