03/08/2026
Day 33 of my 100 day Sit for Peace meditation challenge didn't go as planned, and I still showed up! All day, these feelings of irritability, frustration, and discouragement kept hanging around and the events of the day matched that energy. It felt like nothing wanted to cooperate. Just a lot of little things adding up to create obstacles. The cats making messes and spilling things, my daughter not feeling well and wanting endless attention, my phone being broken, the feelings of "i don't want to" and "no one's watching anyway" and "what I'm doing doesn't matter" and then the internet was out all afternoon/night. But, I took a walk and asked myself- Who am I? How do I want to show up for myself? And with massive support and encouragement from my husband, I decided to get creative and find a way to record my meditation anyway. This one is a little different than the others because I decided to honor where I was and sit in contemplation with these thoughts and emotions, seeking to understand them. Instead of pretending they weren't there or projecting them out onto others, I decided to embrace the emotions and sit with them for this hour. It's real and authentic to where I was. I think it's great when we show up for ourselves on the good days. But the ones where we don't want to show up, and we do anyway, the ones where we would rather choose fear over love (or ease over effort) and we consciously choose love, consciously choose to give effort- those are the breakthroughs. Those are the ones that give us such confidence and trust in ourselves and life that we start to remember we are strong enough to overcome it. Yesterday was just that for me, and today- I'm so proud of myself I could cry! The video glitched and cut off about 10 mins early (i think) but I'm posting it anyway as proof to my future self that even when life seems hard, I have the strength, the patience, the effort, and the truthfulness/honesty to overcome hard things. I CAN choose love even when everything seems to be leading me away from it, and it feels great! If you're ever feeling down and discouraged, remember who you are- YOU ARE MADE OF LOVE. Don't give up on what you believe in. Make yourself someone you can count on. And i love you. Thank you.
Inspired by the Walk For Peace, I asked myself- what can I do to create more peace for myself and my community. I got the idea to create a personal, 100 day challenge. Every day, for 100 days, I will sit for 1 hour in Mindfulness Practice with the intention of bringing peace into my heart and the hearts of all beings. Today is day 33. May all beings be safe, happy, and peaceful. #
