07/25/2023
I have been MIA for awhile and here’s the backstory.
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It all started May 24th, after six months we had the first of many(i think i took about 15 tests) positive tests. To say we we’re excited was an understatement. I had it all ready for Cody to come home and share the news, the box was opened and in was a shirt that said “Hey Daddio!”
“You’re lying, no way” A week later was confirmed by Dr. Anderson!
We had our second appointment three weeks later, we got to see and hear baby’s strong little heartbeat (135bpm). Talk about life changing, it was magical, so glad Cody was there to hear it too. We got our Due Date!! February 1st baby Garey was set to make its arrival.
July 18th rolls around, our 11w4d scan is today! We couldn’t wait to hear it’s heart beat again, we were so excited. However i was nervous all morning, my legs were shaking out of control, i was fidgeting with my hands. It’s time, my first Doppler ultrasound!! We look up at the screen, baby looks a little smaller than expected(no worries), Dr. Anderson says he can see enough of what he wants to see. Switch to vaginal ultrasound. While changing, i looked at Cody and said “either that baby’s is super small, or it’s dead” 9:32am Dr. Anderson confirms my suspicions, no heartbeat, and baby measured about 2 weeks behind.
This was a missed miscarriage, not a single sign to believe that the baby wasn’t advancing, I suffered from severe morning sickness, and I was still puking daily.
My body would not let go of what was already gone, so unfortunately i had to plan when/how I’d like to remove the dead baby inside of me. Thankful for Michigan laws to where i could do it in the comfort of my own home.
I took the 4 pills of Misoprostol Thursday evening, and spent Friday “miscarrying” my angel baby.
This was probably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life, I’m extremely grateful for friends/family and my wonderful husband through this whole process.
When the time is right our Rainbow will shine. 🌈
