03/09/2026
I remember the day my “shift” from fat to thin thinking began. I awoke that morning and immediately got on the scale because I was four days into another diet. Was it going to be a good day? For me, if the scale was down, it was a good day. If the scale was up, it was a lousy one. Low and behold, it was down! Ding, ding, ding! The scale said I won! I was two pounds down!
However, instead of celebrating, I stood there as the depths of this 20-year, nightmarish struggle hit me hard. I felt a wave of grief and fear sweep over me. I was awash in the loneliness of my weight struggle and my self-hatred, cruel words, and feelings of deprivation. This was nothing to celebrate.
I sat down on the bathroom scale in my Santa Monica apartment and began to cry. I cried and cried. I cried for the times I beat myself up. I cried for the binges I had been on. I cried for my husband and my family and the relationships I had been “phoning in” because my struggle with weight overshadowed everything in my life.
I cried because I felt alone and scared. There was no one out there who could help me. There was no diet that was going to put things right. There was no therapist or guru that was going to save me.
How was I going to do this? I had no idea, but I decided in that moment to begin my journey. I got up off the scale and walked out of the dark, dank prison cell of fat thinking and began my shift into the light of thin thinking.
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