02/28/2026
This next chapter is slowly seeping into my cells. The weight I’ve been carrying is dissolving back to the earth and I feel a pulse of regeneration activating through my being.
Just over a week ago I released a big karmic, beautiful, hard, exhausting chapter. On the lunar new year I let go of one version of me and a dream once dreamt. This was a huge decision to make on my own and after making the decision to let it go the universe didn’t just so kindly sweep it away, no I sat in the void for 4 months of contracts, unknowns, and a frigid winter. I knew the last thing I wanted to do was live off grid at that home through winter and with the way contracts did and didn’t play out - that’s just what was in store for me. To be with the last thing I wanted to do. To be stretched and strengthened, to death doula every facet of that chapter. To risk aloneness and what comes with that, to ask for help beyond my comfort zone of asking. To be devoted to the fire and still sit in discomfort as the winter temps drop below zero. It was an initiation in my capacity to tend something so fully, to my emotional bandwidth and sacrifice to responsibility.
What that land ended up holding and catapulting in my life was beyond what I had imagined when deciding to purchase it. Instead it held the unraveling of a relationship and path I once gripped tightly to. It held the actualization of what my heart desires, how I want to co create, the comforts I wish to have. All through the path of trial and error which I seem to choose in this life. In that choosing I have found over and over an embodied knowing in which that sometimes exhausting path makes to all worth it.
I write this today from my next chapter, still a cabin witch, tucked on the edge of the forest, warmed by the fire. So much looks the same and yet absolutely everything is different. I feel my energy returning and the stream of creativity that was once tangled in hardship detangle. There’s so much more I could and may say but for now this is where I land, matched with the cycle of seasons, coming back to life after a good season of death.
📷 first home - closing of chapter - new home 🙃