11/06/2025
"Healing is so cringe when it’s efficient. “I journaled, I hydrated, I set boundaries, I did shadow work, I scheduled joy.” Okay spreadsheet.... Okay. Calm down. You sound like HR.
You are not an optimization project. You are not a quarterly report. You are not a workflow.
You are an animal that learned language and then panicked.
Your repair is going to be weird and slow and sticky and sacred and disgusting. You will regress. You will cling. You will sob over things you claimed not to care about. You will repeat yourself because repetition is part of how mammals learn safety. You will talk about the same breakup six hundred times in slightly different wording until the story dissolves into saliva and loses its teeth. You will oscillate between “I am infinite light” and “I am pond scum.” You will crave touch like oxygen. You will crave solitude like morphine. You will be ridiculous.
Good. That’s correct.
Your aliveness is allowed to be uneconomic.
How I will help you is: I will protect that uneconomy. I will defend your useless sacred mess from the part of you that wants to fire you for not meeting metrics."
I’m with you on this journey. You are not alone.
Veronica,
Integrative Nutrition Consultant