03/29/2023
The cycle that just keeps on giving, until you choose to activate your heart! The pain body is real. I like most humans have in the past been addicted to suffering, as most humans have lost connection with the Truth! The Truth is we create our reality and we are not meant to suffer, unless of course we choose to. As humans we are equipped with bodies and wisdom to release stagnant, stored energy and trauma. The secret though, is we must feel it to heal it. Opening up to consciously feeling and observing the stored pain in your body is scary, until it no longer is. I had to remember that growth is not comfortable, so I had to seek solace in the uncomfortable.
Once you consciously commit to feeling and releasing you open the door to forgiving and healing. This process can feel like you are being gutted alive. The good news is if you feel like you are being gutted, you are feeling. This is the first step toward healing. The secret to feeling it is to release it and forgive yourself for storing this pain in the first place.
This process can be arduous! Many are addicted to their pain body, in turn addicted to suffering. For many who have lived lives of abuse and trauma this is the only path they have known. This process is like a child learning to ride a bike, you fall, bloody and scrape your knees many times, but your desire to pedal freely feeling the wind on your face and in your hair is greater than the fear of falling off your bike once more.
In this life I spent years feeling as though I did not fit. This by the way is a lie told to myself to induce that gift that keeps on giving. You guessed it, SUFFERING. I have told myself so many lies over the years: “I am not pretty enough.” “My body isn’t attractive enough.” “ I am not worthy.” “I am not smart enough.” “ I am not brave enough.” “I am not lovable.” “I am tired.” “I do not have what it takes.” “ I am not a good mother.” “I am not a good friend.” “I am undeserving.” “I do not deserve nice things.” “Nobody can see me.” “Nobody can hear me.” Guess what all lies induced by the gift that keeps on giving. You guessed it again, SUFFERING.
As much energy as I have devoted to unlearning everything I have been taught, which has all been rooted in lies, I can still instantaneously allow my pain body to be triggered. That soft beautiful glowing light that I embody is fully capable of transforming. In less than a breath if I allow the pain body to be triggered, I can wreak havoc and flow like molten lava, destroying everything in its wake, but mostly destroying myself. It takes a lot of energy for the body to work against the very nature of the soul. Our purest state is love, anything other than love is an absolute drain on our energy or life force. Yes! Every time the pain body is activated we are slowly killing the body. The body is our vehicle this lifetime. It is our divine tool, our temple.
Many people believe they are past suffering, until something unresolved rears up like a wild mustang refusing to be tamed. That rearing up can be so minute, not having any other logical explanation than cellular memory trapped within the body. In an instant you can be taken back through your pains, sorrows and traumas.
Releasing oneself from SUFFERING requires discipline. Every soul is a disciple of TRUTH. Every time my pain body is activated I must actively choose to allow the feeling, release the stored energy, forgive myself for storing experiences rooted in untruth and finally speak the TRUTH to my conscious mind. Humans have given limitation dominion over their thoughts. This limitation is worn like shackles. We spend immeasurable energy attempting to break free from the shackles, when we each hold the key.
The key to freeing ourselves from SUFFERING is in the turning of the heart. No we don’t turn the other cheek as many say to do. The answer is activating the heart. Remembering and aligning with our purest essence, LOVE.
The pain body will be activated countless times, until it no longer requires activation because all has been felt, released, forgiven and transformed into the TRUTH.
Each soul that has healed has remembered the TRUTH and taken responsibility for their own suffering. Suffering is always by our own hand, never by the hands of another.
~ Raven Tryna
