02/02/2023
This was one of the most emotional pieces of writing I’ve ever done. Surprise! It seems like a pretty boring, straight-forward topic. But what I didn’t write about in the post is the way my life was absolutely turned upside down while studying for the exam, a test for which I had spent the previous three years preparing.
I thought I had everything perfectly planned out, as you can read about in the blog post. I had one month until my exam, a very strict study schedule, and time blocked off each day so I could be confident about acing the test. But on February 28, 2022, my stepfather (the healthiest person you'd ever meet) was hospitalized with what was later revealed to be a community-acquired MRSA infection. What happened over the next month is hard for me to write about, and frankly, too personal, but it involved multiple trips to and from Florida to be with my mom, rescheduling all of my clients, endless hours trying to navigate the absurd healthcare system in this country, living in a fog all the time, breathing through panic attacks, and having exactly zero mental capacity for studying. I took the exam on the morning of March 31, 2022; later that afternoon I attended my stepfather’s memorial service.
I don’t know why I feel like I need to tell this story. Maybe it’s to inspire those studying for the exam: reassurance that, even if things don’t go perfectly, it will be okay. Maybe it’s because it just doesn’t feel right to write about this exam without talking about Mark, since my memories and feelings around the test are all wrapped up in my memories and feelings about him. Mark was one of the first people to encourage me to take the leap and make a career change to do something that brought me joy (which is just how he lived his life: doing the things that brought him joy). It’s been an immeasurably hard year and some days feel absolutely overwhelming both personally and professionally, but I am putting one foot in front of the other and making it happen.
Read the post here:
https://www.sarahgregory.com/blog/Ibclc-exam