07/19/2025
Driving in the car this morning, I became aware of the all too familiar feeling of tension and unease in my body, the swirling energy around my head.
Stress, overwhelm, a bit of anxiety.
Ugh. I don't want to start my weekend feeling this way.
So, I place a hand over my heart and I invite myself back "home".
I feel my hand over my heart. I feel my heart under my hand.
And I breathe.
After a minute or so, I sigh. My indicator that I'm shifting from flight/fright to a more relaxed state.
A minute or so more and I feel a gentle wave of emotion move through my body.
Sad. Scared. Frustrated.
Ahh, there you are. Let's sit together a bit.
Not trying to change anything. Simply noticing. Acknowledging.
I feel my body slowly settle into the seat more. The tension slowly draining down and out.
A couple of more sighs.
Then, I feel the deep tiredness.
Ah, yes. The worry you've been carrying for weeks, months has been a heavy load. Of course, you're tired. Trying to hold things together, keep things going, tending to all the things alone.
Let's sit together, and, for at least a little while, put that burden aside and rest/recharge.
A wave of relief, of gratitude. I don't have to do this all alone. "Someone" with whom to sit, share the burden.
Still with hand over heart, I sit.
Still, quiet, listening.
More sighs.
More softening.
Becoming more present in my body and present moment.
More connected to my inner self, where there is wisdom, peace.
I still don't know what the answer is, what will lessen the burden.
But, I know that I can navigate the situation, the future, more gracefully when I'm not stuck in the swirling head space of worry. But, rather when I'm connected to the wisdom of my body, my inner knowing.
I feel more at ease, more relaxed, more optimistic, more confident.
Now I can enjoy the weekend!
May you each have a lovely weekend as well!