04/28/2026
Walk It Out ππΊ
This past week has been crazy for sure. It felt like I was hit by lightning and then thunder clapped my brain with so much stress I was contemplating meds... but sometimes you just need to tackle s**t one step at a time and await the outcome. π
The number 12 keeps coming up for this very reason. As my brothers say there are steps to this fuggin process so chill tf out! I like s**t done right away so there is that. βοΈπ
You can't control every aspect of a situation that is happening to you but you can do your best to control your reaction to it and re-focus your efforts and energies towards the things that are going to bring growth your way. π»
So even under duress I made sure to track my calories and walk my 10,000 fu***ng steps. What I found was that it was exhausting as expected but because I was concentrating that frazzled ass energy on exercise I didn't allow myself to stay in my thoughts as much. I pushed through the mental anguish and managed to get closer to my physical goals despite the outside chaos. π§ββοΈ
You see that outside chaos will come in whenever the f**k it wants, it doesn't care about your goals or your well being. So, YOU NEED TO CARE about your goals in spite of it. Tell that chaos to f**k right off and take power over what you can control in this very moment. Have faith that in the moments to come things will be resolved. π―
Feeling exhausted actually helped because I was too tired to give a f**k about anything and so I found myself maniacally laughing and dancing in the shower to Emo music like the weirdo I am and that brought me joy and reminded me of who I am when I'm not under immense pressure. Sometimes you gotta crack a little to find yourself and feel normal again. π€ͺ
Spirit has been reminding me that everything is going to be okay and that I shouldn't waste my energy worrying because they have my back. My brothers have been showing up like "Yo, Manda... we may not be in our meat suits anymore but we are still with you and we believe in you so believe in your fu***ng self." So we walked it out... and I feel better. ππͺ½
Psychic Amanda Marquez β¨οΈ