12/10/2020
My second single. My first release under my name: Paula Bast 📓 ...it’s funny, a good friend of mine pointed out that in my paintings I’m full of colors and sensuality and love and warmth! And several others later pointed out that my music tends to be sad, darker and melancholic.. and I noticed then, its kind of true. 💜I think it’s because my paintings are my dreams, and my memories, and my perceptions of people and situations- it’s how I feel my life, how I see life, how I dream life - whereas my songs tend to be an outlet of emotions and transitory thoughts, a space that empties out the heaviness and emotionality of everyday life...my songs are more like emotional snapshots of my mind in a specific point in time. 📸 my songs are a funny deal, because by the time a song is produced and comes out, that instance that it was born out from, happens to live very far away. And it’s fascinating! 💜 this song is about lingering heartbreak, and how heavy it is to painfully remember that one lover a longtime after they’re gone... ”my cry is the melody of that forgotten love that I remember with EVERY STUPID SONG” 🌊
This video was such a blast to make. I had no clue wtf I was doing, but fortunately I had the support of my amazing friend and director who came up with the idea of how to create something out of an almost inexistent budget basically! We recorded this with one camera, and did only 3 straight takes (or was it 2?) taking advantage of the sunrise sunlight in a beautiful beach in my CA home... the MORNING I was getting on a plane and moving to Miami for the first time ✈️ worked her magic, and honestly, when I saw this finished for the first time, I was so blown away. I think I just didn’t know what to expect... and hearing this song which was produced with my best friend .music, and recorded very slowly, instrument by instrument, month by month, as I collected money to pay each next musician felt sooooo gratifying and beautiful. There were so many hands, and help, and collaborators on the way to making this first lady 🎵 come to be 💜 for PAT WILLIAMS 💜🙏🏽thank