Chloe- Marketing Expert

04/01/2022

For several reasons this information really jumped out at me!

1. Having been a mother who wanted a natural birth who ended up with an induction and subsequent C-section for failure to progress, it makes sense why I ended up with the birth I did in a hospital.

2. As someone who went to school originally to go into obstetrics or surgical orthopedics, I'm grateful my path veered and I'm now planning to start midwife school in January.

There is no harm in asking your provider how comfortable they are with vaginal or natural births or how many vaginal or natural births they have attended/witnessed. It's important that your provider and you have the same goals!

03/11/2022

03/08/2022

Source: https://twitter.com/bymariandrew?s=21

03/06/2022

03/03/2022

There are days when I need you more than you need me, my child.

There are days when I am so tired, so desperate and disappointed in everything that I just want to lie next to you and close my eyes while you cling to my palms with your tiny fingers.

There are days when your hug warms my heart so much that it gives me new strength, even though I thought it wouldn’t be possible.

You are undoubtedly the one who knows me best, the one who for nine months listened to the beat of my heart that I loved without even seeing you, the one that I wanted more than anything else, the one that made me made the happiest person in the world.

My child, thank you for being here with me, for you can lie beside me and sleep peacefully and forgive me the days when I am not the mother I promised myself I would be.

(Mom)

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10/19/2020

09/22/2020

Well when you put it THAT way, it sounds EXTRA racist.
🙄😠🌺❤️

09/16/2020

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Credit to a friend of mine😂 this is gold.

09/16/2020

And also how toxic they are about anything remotely feminine. Men won’t even wear things they see as “too girly” sometimes. You’re telling me a man who hates women enough to murder them is gonna (checks notes) dress as a woman??

09/15/2020

I used to be afraid of being happy.

My mom used to disappear all the time and we wouldn’t know where she was for months and even when she wasn’t around she wasn’t consistent. My dad wasn’t in my life all that much. I didn’t really connect with other kids my age. I acted out in class. Someone close to me died for 10 years straight on/near my birthday. These things all made me feel worthless and that it was better to protect yourself from feeling too much. The stories I built around unworthiness as a child snowballed and built onto each other.

I became an adult who blew up my life, opportunities, and relationships anytime something/someone got to close to me or meant too much to me. I stayed close to people who made me feel uncared for and allowed myself to be stuck in bad situations because it played into my idea that I didn’t deserve to be happy. I had depression so bad days, weeks, and months would go by where all I did was pop a sleeping pill as soon as I got home. My anxiety made me constantly feel like I had hands wrapped around my neck, squeezing until I couldn’t breathe.

When I got sick in 2018 my world was in shambles. It’s the closest I’ve ever felt to “rock-bottom.” The moment I finally got tired of my own bu****it was the day I got discharged from the hospital after having more than 30 PTSD induced seizures in 7 days. Like, who TF let’s their mental health get so bad 😅 ME! I decided I was tired of being miserable and while I had no idea how I was going to get better, I finally realized I deserved more.

I finally acknowledged getting on medication didn’t make me weak. I started doing inner child work and figured out why I had this deep-seeded belief I didn’t deserve happiness. I started working with plant medicine. I listened to my body and honored my boundaries.

Slowly but surely I allowed myself to feel happiness. Then I made it a standard to leave any situation or person that made me unhappy-ruthlessly. Now, I still have those days of unworthiness but I’m able to flip my internal script and coach myself back to healthier thoughts.

It is possible to find happiness and embrace it after running away from it for the majority of your life. Here’s your reminder you deserve all the good things you have and are coming your way.

09/07/2020

G**o Karen 🤣

09/04/2020

Ngl I am not happy or comfortable in my body right now.

I got post period syndrome bad after getting off hormonal birth control last year and between gaining weight and being told once or twice I might not be able to conceive without medical intervention has me hating my body.

I used to get sad looking at pictures from literally last summer when I was my “normal” weight and then I remember that even in the best shape I’ve ever been in my life I still thought I was “fat,” I still criticized about how my body looked from every angle, I still let others negative and sh*tty opinions about my body effect me, and I still wasn’t happy in my own skin when it came to my body.

It’s cringeworthy to be honest.

Instead of focusing on losing weight and getting back into shape, I’m focusing on healing my body post birth control. This phase in life has shown me its vital to develop a loving, grateful, and forgiving relationship with my body. Until I do that, no matter the waist measurement of my jeans or the number on the scale I will continue to be miserable.

(if anyone else is looking to get off HBC or just feels that their hormones are out of whack I’d highly recommend “Behind the Pill” and “Period Repair Manual.” Theyve already helped me so much in understanding my body and hormones!)