01/12/2026
I spent years and years trying to be “skinny enough”
Years hating my body.
Years trying to shrink myself.
Years of thinking that being smaller would equate to being happier…
I spent years battling an eating disorder. It ruined relationships, it ruined my confidence, it took over my life in every way, for a really long time.
When you are in the depths of an eating disorder, you feel like you are the one in control. But the reality of the matter is you are not. The disordered eating habits have complete control over you. It’s very easy to get lost in it, and it is terribly difficult to overcome, it is all consuming. It’s lonely and debilitating at times.
My thought process and journey towards recovery started when I was pregnant with my oldest who is now 10 years old. Being pregnant taught me to be appreciative of my body, it wasn’t about me anymore. I was growing another life.
Three kids later and it still is not about me. I can’t sit here and lie saying that I don’t have negative thoughts about my body from time to time, this will always be something that I have to struggle with at times. BUT I can confidently say that I AM in control now and I know how to get out of a negative mental spiral very quickly.
for me, It’s about setting a good example, it’s about fueling my body so I can be healthy and present for my children for a really long time.
Leading by example is something I am very hell-bent on. I will do everything in my power to continue to show my kids that we work out to be strong and healthy, to live long and happy lives.
I don’t speak negatively about food, my body or anyone else’s. My children know that exercise is something we do to be strong, to be healthy, and I will do everything in my power to make it continue.
With the new year, kicking off and the focus of so many on weight loss and diet trends. I encourage you to focus on your health. Focus on being strong, focus on being happy, focus on your mental health… All of these things are worth far more than “skinny” ever will be.
We get one chance at this life. ONE.
Don’t waste it trying to be small. Live BIG.
You’ve got this ❤️