04/01/2026
Three years. I owe y’all a whole update.
I’ve been quiet on here for a reason — not because nothing was happening, but because everything was happening. And some of it I wasn’t ready to say out loud yet.
So here’s the real:
I moved into an apartment that was genuinely from hell. Sued my landlady. Three times. (Yes, three.) Lost a friendship that meant everything to me — not because anybody was wrong, just because we both grew and the dynamic couldn’t hold the weight of who we were becoming. That one still sits with me.
And then I lost my grandfather.
He raised me. He was there in the way that restructures a whole child’s sense of safety and worth. And I didn’t fully understand how much of my identity was built around his presence until he was gone.
Losing him in March of 2025 cracked something open in me. I found myself asking — Who am I now that this man is not in the world?
That grief became one of the longest depressive episodes of my life. Three medication changes. Passive suicidality. The kind of darkness that makes you grateful for every plant, every pet, every person who loves you enough to stay in the room.
I had to advocate hard for myself to get the treatment I needed. Ketamine therapy has genuinely saved my life. I don’t say that lightly.
And in the middle of all of that — I was also navigating reproductive health issues that had me quietly grieving something else entirely. The kind of grief that doesn’t always get a funeral. But I can finally say, on the other side of it, that my body can finally have a baby. And when that right person comes along? We are ready. 💚
Oh — and my car got stolen on January 1st, 2026. Because life was like girl, we are not done yet. 😭
Here’s what I’ve learned: I have better tools now. I have people who love me. I made it.
I share all of this because I am a clinician who believes you deserve access to therapists who are honest — not just polished. Not just credentialed. But human. We need that. Especially us.
This is the highlight reel. But know that behind every highlight was a hard day somebody chose to survive.
Glad I’m still here. 💚
💬 Drop a 💚 if you’ve had a season that almost took you out but didn’t.