08/19/2025
Hi y’all — I’m feeling so blessed to have such a strong and supportive community during these incredibly hard times. 💕 life’s a damn mess for me lately 🤷🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
Recently, I found out I have congenital heart defects — a very large ASD and a PFO (basically, two holes in my heart that never closed after birth). It’s been a nightmare, honestly. I feel like I live at the hospital. Every day it’s a new doctor, new specialist, new test. And all while trying to be a full-time, single mama chasing my 3-year-old.
I’m devastated, overwhelmed, and scared. My body has felt like it’s been failing me.
But I grew up with the saying:
“If you can’t cry about it, then laugh about it.”
So here I am — laughing, smiling, and loving hard… with this “hole” heart. ❤️🩹 (Gotta love the dark humor lol.)
This journey is teaching me to:
• Live in the moment
• Love deeply
• Take care of my body
• And never stop advocating for myself when something doesn’t feel right
Please: Listen to your body. Don’t give up looking for answers. Even when it’s exhausting. Even when it’s scary. Trust the process, no matter how hard it gets.
🫀 My heart surgery is scheduled for August 7th. (Update, surgery got pushed back to the 18th due to one of the doctors schedule, not lining up with everyone else else’s. 😢🤦🏼♀️)
I’m honestly ready — my heart doesn’t feel like it can take much more. They needed 3–4 cardiac specialists to coordinate the surgery, so that was the soonest they could get me in. I’m trusting the timing.
Hard times don’t last forever. And I know this chapter will only deepen my gratitude for life, for my little one, and for all the love you’ve shown me.
Thank you for holding me up when I’ve felt so low. I’ll return that love triple-time once I’m through this. 💋❤️🙏🏼
P.S. - would you date someone on oxygen? 😂
