09/29/2025
We had to say goodbye to Roxy Friday afternoon. I think she knew I knew. She’d look at me with those big beautiful eyes and say “Mumma, I don’t feel good.” Oh those eyes! The wisdom and understanding and unconditional love that came from those eyes of hers. Roxy was battling kidney disease, which only continues to progress. She was living everyday like she had the flu or feeling hungover. And she gave it her absolute everything to really be here with us while she was. When she had decided she’d given it her all, that was it, and she let us know by stopping eating and drinking last Tuesday. She was uncomfortable and tired. Oh my sweet sweet girl. It pains me to think about how much she rallied to wait for the perfect time to say goodbye. Such a beautiful gift she gave us. We tried a couple rounds of appetite stimulant, but we could tell she was only eating because of the drugs, and was still very uncomfortable. She lost that vigor she had for eating.
Roxy had the best last day. She got to say goodbye to family members and we brought her to the beach one last time. She dug herself a cool little bed in the sand and let us snuggle with her. A lot of people talk about that second wind a pet can get right before the end, and I truly believe that is their gift to us. To help us remember them that way. We had a caring and empathetic veterinarian come to our home and we said our final goodbye as Roxy snored off to her final sleep in the backyard.
All those little sounds that make you lose your breath because it sounds like her. The daily rhythms she used to be fully a part of. My every single work day. Roxy was a very special girl that really did almost everything with us. I laugh at how we would arrive at places, realizing she was with us, and be like… “she can come, right?” She came to pick out the new kitchen, she came to do our taxes.. it’s comical thinking about all the things she’d attend as an extension of Derek and I. Roxy has been with me basically all day since I changed career paths and went back to school in 2018. Helping guide me back to health. When I opened up the massage studio she was my instant assistant and coworker. Then best I could ever ask for!
Her perky happy pigtails.
Her eyes full of understanding and wisdom.
Her silky smooth fur.
Her white flag of a tail blowing in the breeze.
Her elegance.
Her royalty.
Her zoomies, full extension but just hovering over the ground.
Her little grumble asking to share food.
Her front paw tipped out to the side.
Her little elf feet.
The jingle of her necklace.
The camping, the hikes.
The beauty she brought to our lives.
Oh my sweet girl. My sweet sweet girl. My angel baby sweetie baby girl. I miss you so much. I love you. Thank you.