09/12/2023
I left Oregon as I needed change in my life. I needed to start living for me. I needed to start setting healthier boundaries. I needed to learn how to conserve MY ENERGY. To learn who, what, when, where, deserved what I had to give. Having my son has been the biggest change all around. He helps me w all these things and so much more.
You have no idea about being a parent until you are one.. and then, even in the thick of it, no two experiences are exactly the same! You learn societal norms are just that… and often times you don’t feel they represent you and your situation. And that’s okay as long as you and your little ecosystem is working for you.
I’ve learned that I probably wasn’t the best friend to other mothers because I didn’t know how to show up. I could have asked but I didn’t know how. And I am sorry for that. I learned that it’s a lonely and isolating journey of loosing oneself yet finding a newer and improved version. A stronger more resilient version. Yet also, super over stimulated.
Thankful to be a mom. Thankful to have something to do my best for. Thankful to be able to watch a little human grow before my very eyes! Hardest and most emotional roller coaster I’ve ever been on.. but I’m here for it! Best accountability partner I’ve ever had!
Finally on the road to getting things into place out here. Oregon was and always will be my roots. I am thankful for my time and miss it (and you) regularly. I give thanks for my time yet need to look forward now. Moving forward.