Live Now

12/04/2025

NEW YORK - Got back from New York a couple of days before Thanksgiving. Lucky that I did, because I needed the time to cook. Oh my, I forgot how much time and effort it took to cook such an extensive meal; brisket, turkey, potatoes, chestnut stuffing, candied sweet potatoes, brussel sprouts, cranberry sauce and corn bread. I really have not cooked since Lewis and I started to travel and that was about five years ago. When we were in different parts of the world we never cooked. We may have made coffee in the morning, but that was about it. When we were in Miami we never really cooked, because we were only here for a couple of weeks at most. Then when Lewis died, I did not feel like cooking for just myself. I found it to be very lonely and no longer fun.

I made Thanksgiving for 7 people, I made enough food for 15 people and enjoyed the process. But it was more difficult than I thought or remembered it to be. I guess Lewis was much more help then I had ever given him credit for. He loved to cook as well, but Thanksgiving was my baby. Everybody seemed really pleased with the meal, so what more could I ask for. To have a Thanksgiving dinner without Lewis was bitter sweet. It brought up such memories that were wonderful, a past that I treasure, but I missed him so much it caused such indescribable pain.

Now to New York. It was a whirlwind trip, did not stop for a moment. Went to a Monet exhibit in the Brooklyn Museum, went to a Jazz club, went to a Blues club that was fabulous, the singer and lead guitarist was 80 years of age if not older who used to play with Muddy Waters, went to see a Broadway show, Beatlejuice, which I do not recommend, went to many great restaurants, went to SoHo, went shopping for food for a dinner my son and his fiancé made, went to the Village, went to China Town, met my friend for lunch uptown, met my future in-laws for Dim Sum and I know I must have missed something, these activities accomplished in less than six days was a lot of running around!! I had a great time and although I do love New York, I could not live there due to its pace, but it is a great place to visit!!

Where I can live is in Costa Rica. If it has a pace at all it would be described as slow and perhaps sleepy. But that is okay with me. I can go to all these fast paced, interesting, over indulging locations and then come back to a place where I can breath. So, I am moving forward with the contract to build not a house, but a home. Some place that I will feel comfortable and where I will want to spend a good deal of time. I will still travel, but Costa Rica will be my respite from the insanity of the world. And oh, is there plenty of that!!! But that is a different conversation to be had one of these days!!!

I am about to sign a Contract for the construction of the house and I was up all night thinking about what am I doing. Am I crazy? I am about to be 70 years of age and I am building a house in a foreign country, alone. And on top of it all, I have Stage 4 Cancer, (even though I am cancer free at the moment, it is still considered Stage 4), and who knows how long I will live. I must be crazy!! But I am going to do it anyway. Why not? You only live once no matter how long or short it may be!! And there are no guarantees for anyone. My healthy husband died without warning and I am still here, that should prove that there are no guarantees or justice!!

I believe I was up all night worrying about what I am doing, because of the fact that I am now making all the decisions on my own. When Lewis was around we made all the major decisions together, we talked about it, we gave our pros and cons and we, right or wrong, came to a conclusion. Now it is all on me. And it is a big decision. One not to be made lightly. But after all my consternation and hours of thinking through the what ifs, the alternatives and what I want and how I picture the rest of my life to be, it turns out that I feel I am doing just what Lewis would have decided for "me" to do. I do so wish that the "me" was a "we"!!!!

I look at my life and I must say with all my travails, I am damn lucky. Most people would not feel that way, but I do. I had 50 wonderful years with my husband. I loved him and in return I was loved deeply. He is now gone, but I have wonderful memories!!! I had cancer when my children were young, but I survived and had a normal and happy life with them. I did not take chemo and had 16 great years. I got cancer for a second time and once again I survived. I got Cancer for the third time and it was Stage 4. But since being diagnosed, I have survived for four years with only taking prescription medication. When the prescription medication stopped working and there were no other treatments to be had, I was told that I need to follow protocol and start to take the chemotherapy pill, Xeloda. This pill cannot be taken for a long period of time, because it is toxic and once you have to get off of it, then intravenous Chemotherapy is the only treatment available. I refused. And due to my refusal and my doctor having nothing else to prescribe, I was offered 16 months ago, radiation treatment to remove the cancer out of my Iliac bone and Liver where the cancer had spread. I was offered this, due to my refusal and because for some reason the cancer in my lungs and my chest wall, which cannot be radiated or surgically removed had disappeared. Since the radiation, I do not have any traces of cancer in my body. Am I not one of the luckiest people you have ever met? It is all in one's perspective!!!!

Go out and live your life to the fullest and fight every impediment that comes your way and tell yourself and anyone that will listen that you are not ready to be taken down!!! Ask questions and do not be afraid to make your own decisions!!! Doctors are just human and they are making educated guesses. Sometimes they can make the wrong choice, it is up to you to decide. But most of all enjoy your life, even if it is limited, smile often, laugh and love, do love greatly!!! Love your spouse, significant other, your family, your friends and tell them so. But most of all love yourself!! Let no one make you feel unworthy of love or belittle you. Stand up for your right to have a fulfilling life!! And a life worth living!!!! And then, go out and LIVE!!!

Life is not merely surviving!!!! https://livenow.travel/new-york/

12/04/2025

Got back from New York a couple of days before Thanksgiving. Lucky that I did, because I needed the time to cook. Oh my, I forgot how much time and effort it took to cook such an extensive meal; brisket, turkey, potatoes, chestnut stuffing, candied sweet potatoes, brussel sprouts, cranberry sauce an...

12/04/2025

NEW YORK - Got back from New York a couple of days before Thanksgiving. Lucky that I did, because I needed the time to cook. Oh my, I forgot how much time and effort it took to cook such an extensive meal; brisket, turkey, potatoes, chestnut stuffing, candied sweet potatoes, brussel sprouts, cranberry sauce and corn bread. I really have not cooked since Lewis and I started to travel and that was about five years ago. When we were in different parts of the world we never cooked. We may have made coffee in the morning, but that was about it. When we were in Miami we never really cooked, because we were only here for a couple of weeks at most. Then when Lewis died, I did not feel like cooking for just myself. I found it to be very lonely and no longer fun.

I made Thanksgiving for 7 people, I made enough food for 15 people and enjoyed the process. But it was more difficult than I thought or remembered it to be. I guess Lewis was much more help then I had ever given him credit for. He loved to cook as well, but Thanksgiving was my baby. Everybody seemed really pleased with the meal, so what more could I ask for. To have a Thanksgiving dinner without Lewis was bitter sweet. It brought up such memories that were wonderful, a past that I treasure, but I missed him so much it caused such indescribable pain.

Now to New York. It was a whirlwind trip, did not stop for a moment. Went to a Monet exhibit in the Brooklyn Museum, went to a Jazz club, went to a Blues club that was fabulous, the singer and lead guitarist was 80 years of age if not older who used to play with Muddy Waters, went to see a Broadway show, Beatlejuice, which I do not recommend, went to many great restaurants, went to SoHo, went shopping for food for a dinner my son and his fiancé made, went to the Village, went to China Town, met my friend for lunch uptown, met my future in-laws for Dim Sum and I know I must have missed something, these activities accomplished in less than six days was a lot of running around!! I had a great time and although I do love New York, I could not live there due to its pace, but it is a great place to visit!!

Where I can live is in Costa Rica. If it has a pace at all it would be described as slow and perhaps sleepy. But that is okay with me. I can go to all these fast paced, interesting, over indulging locations and then come back to a place where I can breath. So, I am moving forward with the contract to build not a house, but a home. Some place that I will feel comfortable and where I will want to spend a good deal of time. I will still travel, but Costa Rica will be my respite from the insanity of the world. And oh, is there plenty of that!!! But that is a different conversation to be had one of these days!!!

I am about to sign a Contract for the construction of the house and I was up all night thinking about what am I doing. Am I crazy? I am about to be 70 years of age and I am building a house in a foreign country, alone. And on top of it all, I have Stage 4 Cancer, (even though I am cancer free at the moment, it is still considered Stage 4), and who knows how long I will live. I must be crazy!! But I am going to do it anyway. Why not? You only live once no matter how long or short it may be!! And there are no guarantees for anyone. My healthy husband died without warning and I am still here, that should prove that there are no guarantees or justice!!

I believe I was up all night worrying about what I am doing, because of the fact that I am now making all the decisions on my own. When Lewis was around we made all the major decisions together, we talked about it, we gave our pros and cons and we, right or wrong, came to a conclusion. Now it is all on me. And it is a big decision. One not to be made lightly. But after all my consternation and hours of thinking through the what ifs, the alternatives and what I want and how I picture the rest of my life to be, it turns out that I feel I am doing just what Lewis would have decided for "me" to do. I do so wish that the "me" was a "we"!!!!

I look at my life and I must say with all my travails, I am damn lucky. Most people would not feel that way, but I do. I had 50 wonderful years with my husband. I loved him and in return I was loved deeply. He is now gone, but I have wonderful memories!!! I had cancer when my children were young, but I survived and had a normal and happy life with them. I did not take chemo and had 16 great years. I got cancer for a second time and once again I survived. I got Cancer for the third time and it was Stage 4. But since being diagnosed, I have survived for four years with only taking prescription medication. When the prescription medication stopped working and there were no other treatments to be had, I was told that I need to follow protocol and start to take the chemotherapy pill, Xeloda. This pill cannot be taken for a long period of time, because it is toxic and once you have to get off of it, then intravenous Chemotherapy is the only treatment available. I refused. And due to my refusal and my doctor having nothing else to prescribe, I was offered 16 months ago, radiation treatment to remove the cancer out of my Iliac bone and Liver where the cancer had spread. I was offered this, due to my refusal and because for some reason the cancer in my lungs and my chest wall, which cannot be radiated or surgically removed had disappeared. Since the radiation, I do not have any traces of cancer in my body. Am I not one of the luckiest people you have ever met? It is all in one's perspective!!!!

Go out and live your life to the fullest and fight every impediment that comes your way and tell yourself and anyone that will listen that you are not ready to be taken down!!! Ask questions and do not be afraid to make your own decisions!!! Doctors are just human and they are making educated guesses. Sometimes they can make the wrong choice, it is up to you to decide. But most of all enjoy your life, even if it is limited, smile often, laugh and love, do love greatly!!! Love your spouse, significant other, your family, your friends and tell them so. But most of all love yourself!! Let no one make you feel unworthy of love or belittle you. Stand up for your right to have a fulfilling life!! And a life worth living!!!! And then, go out and LIVE!!!

Life is not merely surviving!!!!

Got back from New York a couple of days before Thanksgiving. Lucky that I did, because I needed the time to cook. Oh my, I forgot how much time and effort it took to cook such an extensive meal; brisket, turkey, potatoes, chestnut stuffing, candied sweet potatoes, brussel sprouts, cranberry sauce an...

11/05/2025

MIAMI - I have been home now for three weeks. Boy has it gone fast; I guess it is because of how busy I have been.

I got home on Saturday evening to find a flood in my living room. I had to clean up the water, move the furniture, move the carpet and hope for the best until the morning. I then had my air conditioner repairman come on Sunday to fix my air conditioner, I also had my friend who is a handy man come over to move the carpet and put it into the bathtub so that it could dry out and allow the wood on the floor to dry out as well. Needless to say the wood has been destroyed in the foyer, the area coming into the apartment. So on Monday I had to call my insurance agent only to be told that I should not bother to make a claim, because if I do, then I would receive very little money and then have my insurance cancelled on me. Only then to have to go out to get different and more expensive insurance that covers less. One always wonders why we bother getting insurance in the first place.

The next day, Monday, I moved out of my office that I have had in the building. I had that office for close to five years and went into it maybe 10 times at the most. I moved all my stuff into storage and in the apartment and threw out everything that I could. Tuesday I had my carpet moved downstairs to get cleaned. Air conditioning repairmen came again. A contractor came to look at my floors and give me an estimate. I started my search for tile to use to replace the wood. Wednesday I went to get a blood test. Had the tile man come to look at the floors.

Friday I went to my GP doctor to be told I am doing great!! Saturday spent hours going over my building plans for my home in Costa Rica. Monday I went out to look for tile again. Tuesday went to T mobile to find out that to fix my husbands old phones, which I have not as of yet turned off, would cost me more than to just buy a new one. Tuesday they picked up the rug to be cleaned. Air conditioning repair men came back to fix the air-conditioned further. Wednesday went for a Pet scan and a blood test. Monday I went to my warehouse to sell some of my office furniture and show the Broward County School board what I was willing to give away.

I went to my oncologist on Tuesday to discuss the results of the Pet scan and blood test, I am fine. No cancer!!!!! Started the s**t diet to cleanse myself out for my colonoscopy on Friday. Wednesday went to look for tiles again. Found some I like. Thursday went to the dentist for a check up and teeth cleaning and then to my eye doctor to make sure I was not getting a cataract in my other eye. Doctor only needed to change my prescription. Friday had my colonoscopy. And on Monday I went to get a bone density scan. Then yesterday I went to the warehouse at seven in the morning to meet up with the Broward County School board personnel to give them all of my office furniture that I had in storage. It was a lot of furniture. I then went to the office at the storage facility and found new storage space that will now cost me one third of the cost of what I have been paying. All in all, wouldn't you agree, a quite and uneventful few weeks!

I am not complaining about all that I had to do. I could have missed the flood, but everything else went as planned. All the tests have proven that I am well. I am cancer free!!! Can you imagine that, I have stage 4 Cancer and there is no cancer within my body!!! I was sick and now I am well and it is difficult to accept, especially when Lewis died and he was not even sick. Is this some cruel joke? I sometimes feel that dying would have been so much easier. You are here and then you are not! You do not worry, you do not miss anyone and you are at peace. I know that Lewis would not have been able to go on without me. At least I believe that. He would not have known how to survive. I guess I do. But it is not easy. I cry at a drop of a dime. I am laughing one minute and crying the next.

Why am I writing this, I guess it is because I am so tired. I am so tired knowing that I will not have my husband with me when things do go bad. I will be basically alone. Yes, I have family and friends, but they are not Lewis. They are not my foundation. They are not my true love. I have to make all the decisions now. I have to be the strong one. I am constantly being told how strong I am. How amazing I am. But I do not feel that way. I feel lost much of the time. But I do not know what else to do, but to proceed. To move forward. I feel as if I do not have a choice but to keep on going.

Life is hard. But I cannot stop. So I carry on. And when I do, I do find happiness. I do find laughter and I realize that life is to be lived. Everyday is a gift. I have my family and I have my friends and no they do not replace Lewis and all that he meant to me, but they do make life worth living.

Am I contradicting myself?, yeah, I guess, but that too is life. Life is not black and white, it is mostly gray and gray is a combination of black and white and you can find happiness within it. I seem to be rambling now!! I know, It is because you can be happy and sad all within the same moment. You can hate what you are doing and yet find pleasure in it. You can hate the person you are with and yet you love that person all the same. Life can be confusing. But enjoy it as much as you can. Proceed to the end with a smile on your face with the knowledge that it is the only life you have. So make the most of it!!!

Health can change in an instant for the good or for the bad. So fight for it, do not follow protocol without asking a million questions; you make up your own mind!!! Protocol is based on statistics, it does not work for everyone. You make the decisions. You are in control. Once you take control, you will feel better about your life and your situation. Do not let the fear defeat you. It is your body and your life and what happens or does not happen is up to you!! Take control and read your body and do what you think is right. And most of all while you are doing it, enjoy your life. Laugh, love, and find happiness where ever you can find it!!!!

Life is not merely surviving!!!!

10/10/2025

SO WHAT TOOK ME SO LONG - I just realized that I have not blogged for quite a while now and I cannot say that it is due to any reason other than the fact that I did not think what I have been doing would be of any interest to anyone. Yes, I have been traveling: but I went back to Costa Rica. Where I do mundane things, I go to the beach, I take long walks, I swim in the ocean, I go to tidal pools, I swim in swimming pools, I am learning to play mahjong, yes, you heard me right, mahjong, I read, I watch birds take flight, butterflies mate and I sit and watch the grass grow. Exciting right!!! The most exciting experience that I had while in Costa Rica this time occurred during an afternoon that I spent in a neighbor's pool and watched between 30 to 40 monkeys swing from tree to tree for over an hour. I loved it; I am not complaining, it really was terrific to watch!! I find that in Costa Rica I can breath. I do not know if you understand the significance of that statement. What I mean when I say I can breath is that I can find my center. I am calm. I do not feel like I have to do something or accomplish anything. It means that I am happy and content by just existing. What a gift that is!!!

I am moving forward on the building of a home there in Costa Rica, but it is going very slow. I filled the lot, which is required in order to build anything in Costa Rica in the area that I am in. I am building in a rain forest and the land is swampy. So in order to build one must fill the lot. I have also started to work on the architectural drawings, which must be approved by me before we can move forward. Once the building really begins I may long for the days that I was calm and centered!!!

Well today I woke up and said to myself when I was still partially in a dream sequence, that I must ask Lewis about something I was dreaming about. Once I was fully awake and realized that Lewis was no where to be found on this planet or any other planet for that matter, I was devastated!! I cannot remember when I felt so alone. It was our routine in the morning to sit and talk before getting out of bed to start the day. We would spend hours talking, making plans and just being close to one another. I would wake up every morning and jump out of bed once my eyes popped open. Lewis use to say that I was his energizing bunny. While his MO was to wake up, drift off back to sleep for a bit, then wake up very gradually to meet the day. It could take him hours to get out of bed. So I would get up and make us coffee. I would serve the coffee in bed and we would talk, then I would bring another cup and we would spend our mornings like this. I did not realize how much I missed this commonplace activity, until this morning. It is the little things that cause you the most pain when you lose someone you love!!! It is the insignificant things that made your relationship yours, that hurts the most when you realize that you will never share the experience with that person again.

I have been sick for years now. And every day I wonder what will be my next crises. What new issue will I have to contend with. But it is nothing compared to the daily feeling of sadness caused by the loss of my husband. There is not one day that goes by that I do not shed a tear for the loss of Lewis. Everyone thinks that I am doing great, that I am moving forward, that I am living my life. And I am, but that does not mean that I do not feel the loss, or that I am unconcerned about my health. It just means that all these feelings, the sadness, the health concerns and living ones life can all coexist!!! Why am I writing about this now, well because every now and then I get slapped in the face with my reality! And I know that some people get slapped and never move on. Some people grieve and lose sight of their own lives, some live from doctors office to doctors office and they never consider the possibility that they can choose to do something different with their lives. I want people to know that they can chose to live, that their loved ones would want them to. Their illness can be an element of their life without letting it take over every aspect of your life.

I do not take life as a given, I know that any day can be my last! So why not live your life to the fullest while you can? Why not find happiness wherever you can find it? Life is a gift, see it that way!! Make new friends, get closer to old friends, tell those who you love that you do indeed love them. Be loving, kind and compassionate to those that reciprocate. But most of all be kind to yourself, do things that bring you happiness!!! Find that which brings you complete utter joy wherever it leads you!!

Life is not merely surviving!!!

https://livenow.travel/so-what-took-me-so-long/

08/20/2025

ISTAMBUL and GREECE - Well, Iam back from a really good trip with three friends that I have come to cherish! As I said before I was with three different people from three different time periods of my life, elementary, middle and high school. We all got along and I believe we all enjoyed each others company. The cruise that we took through out Greece fit its purpose. The cabins were large, the food good and the stops that we made was where I wanted to go. It made it easy, that is what a cruise is for. I look forward to another trip with these friends in the future!

We all met in Istanbul and spent a few days there before the cruise. It was hard going back to Istanbul, because I was there with Lewis about three years ago for about five weeks. I kept remembering what we did. What restaurants we went to, what Mosques we went into, what streets we walked down. I kept feeling like any minute he would appear and come running up to me with his great big smile. But that was not to be had. I was melancholy, but thankful that I had those memories. I was thankful that I had had him in my life for as long as I did!!!

Greece was fascinating!! But most of all Athens was hard to beat!!! We spent about 4 days there after the cruise. It is so hard to believe that ordinary people with no formal education, because there was none, no computers, no machines, living in 447 BCE had built such structures by hand, i.e.; the Parthenon, the Acropolis, and so many other structures now in ruins. They lived in such dynamic cities. They had advancements that only came back into use many thousands of years later. I kept questioning and still question, what happened that we as a people lost the knowledge to build such structures, live in such cities, have such insights, such conceptualizations as to governing and policies, art, literature and virtually go backwards into a period that lasted thousands of years of literally no advancements at all in most of the populated world. What happened? Could it be that women were no longer in control? Just a thought!!

So now I am home for less than three weeks. During this time, I have an MRI, a colonoscopy, a eye doctor appointment, an appointment to get a blood test, get my last shingle shot and meet up with my Oncologist. Not to mention close my law firm, empty the office, get rid of office furniture and finally work on my plans for the home I am building in Costa Rica. A bit much I must confess!!! I am also jet-lagged. I know I will get it done, but I wish I had more time. Such is life!!

I am proceeding to move forward with my plans to build in Costa Rica. This too is hard, because I am doing it all alone. Do not misunderstand me, I do have friends that are definitely helping me, but I am alone in respect to Lewis. For fifty years he was there. He was involved in every decision that I made. I am now proceeding on a course that I alone make. It is a conscious decision to move on without him. Not that I have any choice, but this is a total change to my world. It is lonely at times and sometimes I feel quit overwhelmed!!! But if we are alive, I feel we must live that life and like I always say, to the fullest!!

We all have choices in our lives. Some are easier then others, but there are always choices. We can be afraid to move forward and stay where we are or we can decide to take one small step towards happiness, fulfillment and even love and realize that we survived that one small step. Then take another one, until you find yourself somewhere you never thought you would be, happy again. Losing someone you love or having an incurable disease or both, is no reason to stop living. Find your happiness, find something or someone who makes you smile and live. There are no guarantees of a tomorrow!!!

Life is not merely surviving!!!! https://livenow.travel

07/28/2025

INOT AGAIN!!! - I came home from a whirl wind trip. First in Idaho for quite a long time moving and selling furniture that I had from when I sold the house up in Garfield Bay and then to New York on an eating and drinking frenzy. It was exhausting, but quite a lot of fun!!!

Then to realty. I went for my Pet Scan the day after I came home from my trip. I was on the computer when the written report from the radiologist arrived by e-mail, as a general rule, I usually do not read my reports; I usually wait until I see the doctor to hear what the results are regarding my tests. But no, this time not having had any cancer in my body for nearly a year, I was unconcerned and opened and read the report. What a Mistake!!! It indicated that I had a growth on a nodule in my lungs. And it stated that it was concerning to the radiologist!!! Needless to say, I was devastated!!! Not again, no this cannot be happening!!! Cancer, growing, now what am I going to do?

I spent two and a half days of sheer hell!!!! I was working all the angles in my head. I will not take Chemo, so what do I do now? There are no clinical trials going on that is feasible for my type of cancer. There are no new targeted therapy drugs available to fight my kind of cancer. I will not take the Chemo pill, because it is only a precursor to intravenous Chemo. So now what am I going to do? I had to come up with a plan of action. I was alone, Lewis is gone and I had to make my own decision as to what I will be willing to do. So after much consternation, I decided that I would increase the milligrams of the drug I am on now, Verzinio and incrementally increase it until I am on the full protocol dosage. I am now only taking a third of the dosage that is recommended due to the adverse affects I was previously experiencing. And then when Verzinio is no longer doing the trick, I would then go onto the other drug therapy's I had already been on to see if they would buy me any time. Buying time is essentially what it is all about when you have cancer or any chronic disease that has no cure. And with this purchased time, hopefully, a new drug will come out that can buy you even more time.

Then I went to see my Oncologist. She said, "I was not looking forward to this meeting today." I said, "I know, I read the report." She then added "Not until I studied the actual films. The radiologist is an alarmist: the reports indicate a negligible growth in the lung without ascertaining whether it is cancer." Now you can see why, one should never read their own reports!!!! I lived through hell and back to find out that I worried for nothing. Well, not completely nothing. We did decide to increase my dosage of Verzinio by another 50 milligrams. Just to be on the safe side. Five days later my Oncologist let me know that my blood test came back and Signatera is not detected; which means there is no circulating tumor DNA in my body. The blood test result further indicates that cancer is not growing in my body. Yippppeeee!!!!

I could now go on to explain, in great detail, my saga of my eye problem due to my cataract operation done three months ago, but I am tired of complaining. I will say however, I am still on eye drops, my pupil does not dilate and I have been freaked out about all this since my time in Idaho!!!! I changed eye Doctors and I am now understanding that the simple easy peasy cataract operation I had will take a lot of time to heal!!

NOT AGAIN!!! - I am leaving in four days to go to Istanbul and Greece. I am going with three friends one from elementary school, one from middle school and one from high school. This will be interesting. I am not staying home in order to see what happens with my eye. I am not staying home even though I have a growth in my lung, cancer or no cancer. I am going to travel! I am going to live! And I will worry when I have to! Right now I don't feel the need!!! Again, it is proven that life has no guarantees!!! So live everyday as if it were your last!! Enjoy yourself, find happiness, smile and laugh as often as you can!!!! Tell someone you love them, make someone feel good! Have as many people as you can remember you with fondness!! Then you know that you have lived well and you were happy!!!

Life is not merely surviving!!!!!