Soma-Heart-Mind

12/27/2025

When I look back, it makes me cringe a bit…how much is was willing to invest in my suffering vs how little I was willing to invest in my healing and recovery.

When I began stepping into those spaces of connection, it was with a great deal of apprehension.

Yet I had no problem putting my body in unsafe situations.

🔥A sound bath was more uncomfortable than being groped in a crowded bar.

🔥A meditation session felt more terrifying than the loud, head thumping of a good beating from a violent partner.

🔥A healthy meal sounded like something only stuck up people did versus the shots of Jegar and vodka I’d pound down at the bar.

Why was I willing to invest in my suffering and not my healing?

I didn’t have money to pay my bills but somehow I paid $100 bar tabs and rounds for friends to boot.

I didnt have money to pay my debts but somehow always had the ability to buy those jobless boyfriends dinner and gas in their cars.

I didn’t have money to go to a soul filled healing retreat but was able to spend thousands on becoming jobless, carless, and drunk.

What is that?
Unworthiness.

Ultimately, I can see now, I simply felt vastly unworthy.

If you felt worthy, what would you invest in? Would you invest in yourself?

12/23/2025

Final Call to the Tender‑Hearted

If your body has been whispering for a reset, this is your last chance this year to step into **Sacred Self Reflexology**—a grounding, lymph‑loving session designed to help you soften, release, and return to yourself before the calendar turns.

And for those craving a collective exhale, our **Year‑End Sound Healing** is the closing note of the season. Come let the bowls carry what you’re ready to lay down, and make space for what wants to arrive.

Two offerings. One doorway back to your center.
If you’ve been waiting for a sign, this is it.

Soma-Heart-Mind

12/23/2025

🌙 The 7 Levels of Awakening
*A distilled, soul-centered map drawn from multiple teachings and sources*

# # 1. **The Call / The Dissatisfaction**
A subtle (or sudden) knowing that something is off.
Life feels too small, too loud, or strangely hollow.
You begin questioning meaning, purpose, and identity.
Sources:

# # 2. **The Shift in Perception**
Your inner lens changes.
You start noticing synchronicities, energy, intuition, and patterns you once overlooked.
Old beliefs feel tight, like clothes you’ve outgrown.
Sources:

# # 3. **The Search / Discovery**
You become hungry for understanding.
Books, teachers, rituals, practices, nature, meditation—your curiosity expands.
You begin sensing that there is more beneath the surface of everything.
Sources:

# # 4. **Breakthroughs / Inner Knowing**
Moments of clarity arrive—sometimes gentle, sometimes lightning.
You experience “aha” moments, deeper intuition, or spiritual connection.
Your worldview widens, and you feel more aligned with your inner truth.
Sources:

# # 5. **Deep Healing & Release**
Old wounds rise for clearing.
Patterns, fears, and emotional residue surface so they can be witnessed and released.
This stage can feel heavy, but it is profoundly liberating.
Sources:

# # 6. **Integration & Purpose**
You begin living what you’ve learned.
Your choices, relationships, boundaries, and rhythms shift.
You feel more aligned with your values, intuition, and soul-led direction.
Sources:

# # 7. **Unity / Peace / Spiritual Mastery**
A sense of inner spaciousness.
You feel connected—to yourself, to others, to the world, to something larger.
Life becomes less about striving and more about being.
This isn’t perfection; it’s coherence.

12/18/2025

Healing is not about how it looks.
It is about how it feels.

Body-Wise practices are about presence, not perfection.

When practice demands performance, we lose presence.
Trauma-informed practice restores balance:

Your pace is sacred.
Your ‘no’ is holy.
Your body is wise.
Your choices are honored and respected.

We gather to remember what has been forgotten in an accessible way.

On Sunday, December 28th,
Sacred Self-Reflexology becomes a doorway back to presence.

Come as you are. Leave with sovereignty in your own hands.”

Every

12/17/2025

Food for thought.

12/17/2025

Breath is the bridge between body and spirit.
But when breath is forced, it can feel like drowning in someone else’s rhythm.

Trauma-informed practice invites breath as choice—gentle, spacious, yours.

Self-reflexology reminds us:
your nervous system knows the way home.

Join me Sunday, December 28th, at Inner Space of Des Moines for Sacred Self-Reflexology.

A circle of grounding, empowerment, and trust in your own intelligence.

12/17/2025

My weekly recommended FREE meditation from Insight Timer 🔥❤️💥

Soma-Heart-Mind

By Marysol Ximenez-Carrillo

12/16/2025

Not all healing practices honor our sovereignty.
Hands-on adjustments, forced breathwork, rigid sequences—
they can silence the body’s wisdom.

But trauma-informed practice is different. You choose. You decide. You know.

On Sunday, December 28th, join me for Sacred Self-Reflexology.
A ritual of listening, not forcing.
Come as you are. Leave with tools in your own hands.

Link to book your spot can be found in the comments section below. Soma-Heart-Mind

12/16/2025

Hot water steams into the slightly neglected bathtub.
I light a candle.
Into the water I add a mixture of random things I find enjoyable. Things Ive sourced from friends and the kitchen cupboard.

This evening, I had a choice.

I knew I had a choice because years of navigating boundaries, changing my inner-relationship through inner child work, and trust, has allowed me to know TRUE AUTONOMY.

We came home from dinner and my husband had mentioned decorating the Christmas tree.

Now mind you, I realized about two days ago that I had tossed out last years tree, with the lights still on it.

Full transparency, we had discovered our dog had been marking in the tree and is was so over it, I tossed it all out minus most of the orderments.

It’s okay.
Don’t be sad.
We, as a family, have put a lot of work into detachment. It was a tree and lights. No biggie.

Autonomy: While yes, that tree had sentimental value, I’m not going punish myself or my family by attempting to clean dry p**s off a plastic tree.

My husband announces “we don’t need lights! We will just decorate it w what we have.”

Surrender and Autonomy: I will allow my husband to lead and not be a martyr to perfection, control, or traditions I didn’t create in the first place.

I agree. Our son is beyond excited! He begins to gather things and as I’m starting my process of “make sure you do it like this…” I catch myself mid-critique.

Boundaries, Surrender, & Autonomy: Who cares! He is so happy and my husband is happy and this will happen with or without all the stuff. I’m not going to p**s all over this new tree w my old garbage.

“Hey babe, I think I’ll go take a hot bath. You boys can decorate the tree and we can have some tea and a game after?”

My husband leans in and kisses me. “Of course, that’s perfect.”

….

Let me tell you a little secret. This burden of traditions we don’t create, boundary less relationships, and unintentional servitude…you stop it.
YOU!
It ends here. It’s ends here with you and me getting clear on what is and is not our.

In fact, although the last few years of this “shedding” has pushed our relationship to the limit at times (like last year when I almost filed for divorce), it ultimately did something else…once we got quiet and listened to the Universe without all the static.

Hold.

That’s all I kept hearing over and over.

Hold.
Hold here my love. We have been here before. It’s time to hold. Wait. Listen.

And so I did.

You know what I heard when I held?
“Do some thing differently my love. This time, do it differently. Dont do what the others befor you did. Hold and Change course right here. Right now.”

Over the last 12 months the entire universe has opened up. They synchronicities are BOUNDLESS and I pray will always magical.

I’ll take this bath.
My son and husband will decorate the tree.
We are not here to recreate what those before us have already done.
We are here to make our own way.

Much love.w at hi g

12/15/2025

Chinese Zodiac Insights (Fire Horse Year)

The Fire Horse (Feb 17, 2026 – Feb 7, 2027) is known for speed, freedom, and fiery independence. It brings chaos and breakthroughs, urging us to shed stagnation and embrace bold moves.

🌞 Western Astrology Energy in 2026

Western astrology shows major planetary shifts that align with the Fire Horse’s intensity:

• Saturn & Neptune enter Aries → Collective focus on identity, courage, and pioneering action Cafe Astrology.
• Jupiter in Cancer & Leo → Emotional leadership, creativity, and bold self-expression Astrostyle +1.
• Overall themes: Transformation, clarity, emotional renewal, and decisive new beginnings.

By Western Zodiac Sign

• Aries ♈: Saturn/Neptune in your sign — time to step into leadership and redefine your path.
• Ta**us ♉: Financial restructuring; embrace innovation while holding steady to values.
• Gemini ♊: Communication breakthroughs; bold collaborations and new networks.
• Cancer ♋: Jupiter blesses you with emotional growth and family-centered expansion.
• Leo ♌: Jupiter fuels creativity, romance, and visibility — shine boldly.
• Virgo ♍: Health and service themes intensify; balance practicality with courage.
• Libra ♎: Relationships transform; Fire Horse energy pushes you to redefine partnerships.
• Scorpio ♏: Deep rebirth; career and spiritual breakthroughs align with your intensity.
• Sagittarius ♐: Adventure calls; education, travel, and risk-taking bring growth.
• Capricorn ♑: Career restructuring; Saturn’s shift demands bold reinvention.
• Aquarius ♒: Innovation surges; community and tech projects thrive.
• Pisces ♓: Spiritual clarity; Neptune leaves your sign, bringing fresh identity and purpose.

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12/15/2025

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12/15/2025

This question has been on my mind over the last few months; When is it gossip and when is it proactive sharing for safety?

I can across this little nugget during my yoga teacher training. Never hurts to take a little refresher ❤️.

For trauma survivors, this one can get dicy and confusing real quickly. Especially if you grew up in places where silence kept your abuse a secret.

- If silence protected your abuser.
- If silence allowed those who knew, to avoid the discomfort of the situation.
- If silence was used to oppress and control.

The Litmus Test

Before sharing, ask yourself:

1. Is this necessary for someone’s safety or well-being?
2. Am I speaking to the right person, at the right time, with the right tone?
3. Would I say this if the person I’m speaking about were present?
4. Does this honor dignity, or does it diminish it?

If the answer leans toward protection, empowerment, or care → it’s discernment.

If it leans toward entertainment, speculation, or diminishment → it’s gossip.

• 🔥 Safety-sharing is like lighting a lantern to guide someone through the dark.
• 🔥 Gossip is like tossing sparks into dry grass—quickly spreading harm without purpose.

Not seeking perfection.
Definitely seeking to practice.