02/07/2026
Sixteen years ago, I made the decision to give up alcohol and it changed my relationship with myself and my life.
I grew up feeling sensitive and experiencing things deeply, which left me feeling different somehow and unsure how to show up or feel comfortable in my own skin.
When I was young, alcohol was an easy answer.
It was accessible.
It worked quickly.
And at that stage of life, I didn’t yet understand that my depth of feeling was a strength not something to minimize, manage, or water down.
That kind of understanding doesn’t usually come early.
It comes with time, awareness, and lived experience.
So alcohol became the way I quieted that feeling
the way I made myself feel more at ease.
For a while, it worked.
Until it asked more than it gave.
What eventually became clear was that this wasn’t something I could work my way through with willpower or discipline.
It was a spiritual awakening of sorts,
the realization that there was another way, and that I didn’t have to carry it all on my own.
Letting go of alcohol didn’t take something away from me.
It gave me a relationship with myself.
Since then, my relationship with life has changed.
I know how to live with my feelings instead of minimize them.
I trust my sensitivity.
I let it guide me rather than quiet it.
I’m more aware than I’ve ever been.
More present.
More free.
And if you’re reading this and something in you is nodding…..
maybe alcohol isn’t what’s working. Maybe it’s something else. Something that has a quiet grip on your mind. Something that keeps you numbed, distracted, or stuck in patterns you’ve outgrown.
Here’s what I know after sixteen years:
freedom is possible even from the thing you’re convinced you can’t live without.
Not when you’re perfect.
Not when you have it all figured out.
But when you’re willing to be open and receive support.
If this resonates and you feel moved to connect, you don’t have to hold it alone. Whether it’s a message, a question, or simply naming what you’re standing with, I am here.
We don’t do this life alone, we were never meant to!
All the love,
Jennifer