01/30/2026
Day 34: UPS AND DOWN:
Today was a day that my mind took the best of me for some reason we just sometimes get lost in the what ifs. Stoicism tells you that you don’t focus on the past or the future. Just be present and work on what you can control. I know this but sometimes I let my mind just wonder. Sometimes it’s as simple as the goals I may have and sometimes those goals don’t get met. Like this week I gained 5 pounds and I wonder how. How if I also measure inches and this week I lost inches around my stomach and chest. So if things make me think did I gain fluids. How are my kidneys working.
I mean I had a great day yesterday. I was at cardiac rehab and I went around the track and what I would usually be in the past at 128 heart beats per minute to now it was averaging 106 meaning my heart is working less doing the same movement which means it got stronger. Improvements. But even though I’m moving better and blood pressure has been good. That 5 pound weight gain bothered me. I have been great on my food and been good on workouts. It’s one of those things I let it eat me up for half my day!!! It’s crazy.
SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE BASICS. And that’s how I get out of this mode. For me it’s
MEDITATION
YOGA
JOURNALING
READING
AND JUST WORKING OUT.
ITS ABOUT NOT GIVING UP. EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL YOU LOST
Because it may seem like you fell back but it’s never a set back unless you allow it to be.
Let’s fu***ng have a great weekend.