10/07/2025
When I was preparing for motherhood, I wasn’t afraid, I just wasn’t fully prepared.
I didn’t realize how many possibilities could unfold in birth, or how much education and preparation could empower the experience.
When my first baby was born by emergency C-section, I was left with a wave of gratitude, relief… and grief.
I hadn’t been prepared for that path. I didn’t understand how to advocate for myself or how deeply my birth would shape me.
That experience cracked me open. It became the seed of the work I do now, supporting women in reclaiming their voices, their nourishment, and their sovereignty in birth.
In the years that followed, I immersed myself in learning. I became a doula, a student of women’s wisdom, and I began rebuilding trust, in my body, in birth, and in life itself.
By the time I conceived my second child, I was ready to surrender.
Yes, fear and disbelief crept in, the kind that comes from truly caring about the outcome. But I leaned into it. I nourished my body with whole foods, tended to my nervous system, and allowed myself to soften into the unknown.
And when my HBAC unfolded, my home birth after cesarean, I was reborn.
In that moment, everything I had carried from my first birth dissolved. I remember thinking, Why did that all matter so much?
Because I had found it — the trust, the wisdom, the deep knowing that birth was never something to conquer or control. It was always something to surrender to.
✨ My greatest realizations:
– Birth is not something that happens to us — it happens through us.
– The body holds ancient intelligence, waiting for us to listen.
– Whole food nourishment is the foundation of everything — not just for fertility and pregnancy, but for belief in ourselves.
These lessons reshaped not only how I birth, but how I mother, and how I serve.
I’ll be sharing this story and more on Ayurvedic practices + holistic nutrition at the .connected.birth Blissful Birth Summit. Link in my stories!
