12/21/2025
It's December. A month of lights ,tinsel, shopping, baking, family, parties, gifting, songs .......and for me, triggers.
In years past, as the anxiety of perfection started seeping in and busyness became unbearable, I numbed. I didn't like what I was feeling, in fact I couldn't even name that feeling, so I didn't . I took those extra pills or cut my own skin and just kept going.
All the decorating,
All the baking,
All of the cleaning,
All of the hosting,
All of the perfection.........
I did it ALL.
I have been free from those addictions for three years.....
That means that now I feel everything. I still can't name all the emotions, but I feel them. And I can't say that I always love it. I really want to chill with a pill, or 2 or 3.
But instead I make myself notice my feelings and my thoughts, and then distract my self by counting all of the blue colored items in the room I'm in or taking deep Jesus breaths. Tools I have learned to help me focus on and keep my sobriety.
I could never do this alone.
And you don't have to either. y
I have a huge support family at Celebrate Recovery. These people encourage me in my walk towards healing. No, The road to healing isn't an easy one. Maybe you know this too. Recovery may be hard, but walking this stoney path with people who actually get it is invaluable.
Please join me at Celebrate recovery We meet every Thursday evening at The Well in Pella at 5:30.
Let's walk this rocky road together.