02/28/2026
Another year older and when you really think about it.. it is a gift.đ
Some years stick out more than others and this was certainly one for the books. It had to be one of the hardest of my life â physically and emotionally.
From the same week I learned I was pregnant with baby #4, my family also got really really hard news about my father. So it was pregnancy nausea, fatigue, dead of winter yuck, with lots of fear and anxiety hoping he would still be here to meet the babyâŚto celebrate another birthday together. And with pregnancy alone- you just keep hoping everything continues to go well. Sneaky low level worrying is always there until Iâm holding that baby in my arms . This pregnancy was the hardest of them all too. A very pregnant achey tired summer. Lots of hip pain and UNrest. I felt like not fun mom. My sparkle felt faded. Then newborn life with three other kids and starting a brand new school year.
It was a lot. Every single month felt heavy in some way.
My birthday always falls in this weird in-between season â the end of winter but not quite spring. Which honestly feels fitting. I usually feel somewhere between surviving and blooming- often every year at this point.
And now, six months postpartum, I finally feel like Iâm coming up for air.
Not in a dramatic way.
Like Iâm almost done crawling out of the trenches and seeing light again. â¨
Iâm sure my hormones are having an effect too. đ
Iâm also closer to 40⌠and I can feel that âI donât give a f***â energy creeping in đ
⌠in a good way.
Anyway these are my birthday reflections and ramblings and a lot of feels Iâve been holding in until now when I feel like sharing.
I like sharing because I like when other people can share their stuff and I can relate too.
So Iâm just happy to be here!
It seems like life will always throw curveballs. There will always be trenches. But Iâve personally found that growth usually happens when you start crawling out and realize you handled more than you thought you could.
I hope I never forget that and that it does work out that way always.
Grateful for another year.
Grateful for my people.
And very ready for spring đ¤ đˇ