03/12/2026
Tonight I had the privilege of speaking at Physician Impairment Grand Rounds for the anesthesia team at UPMC Shadyside.
Every time I share my story with physicians, there is a moment where the room becomes very still. Because the truth is — my story does not begin in medicine.
It begins in a home shaped by trauma, chaos, and addiction.
A childhood where survival came before stability. Where the nervous system learns early how to scan for danger instead of safety. The kind of beginning that statistics say should end very differently.
And yet somehow, that little girl grew up to become a physician… standing in front of a room of anesthesiologists talking about trauma, resilience, and physician impairment.
In medicine we often talk about burnout, addiction, and impairment as if they happen in isolation. But behind every struggling physician is a human being with a nervous system, a history, and a story that likely started long before medical school.
Trauma does not discriminate.
But neither does healing.
My hope in telling the truth about where I came from is that it opens the door for more honesty in medicine. Less stigma. More compassion. More courage to take care of each other.
Because here is the truth I left the room with tonight:
The little girl who grew up in trauma, chaos, and addiction was never supposed to end up here.
But sometimes the very stories that could have broken us… become the reason we are able to help heal others.
And that might be the most powerful form of medicine there is. 🤍 Thank you Kristin Ondecko Ligda for inviting me and for the opportunity to share lifestyle, integrative, and mind-body medicine UPMC Shadyside Medicine Grand Rounds UPMC Shadyside Hospital 🙏 Grateful Thankful Blessed ❤️