11/14/2025
felt like I totally messed up today…which is funny because
Someone said to me yesterday, “Well, you don’t ever end up in a low place. You don’t ever end up feeling despondent or spun out.”
And I laughed, because of course that happens to me. I have to navigate those same feelings and emotions.
She said, “Well, I don’t feel like I ever see you having to do that.”
And my thought was: once people become familiar with leading themselves through something, they make it look incredibly easy. The challenge is that when someone reaches a certain level of mastery, they make things look effortless—and then we assume it’s *always* been easy for them.
Think about professional basketball players. They make it look simple, almost casual. But what you’re seeing is thousands of hours of work and devotion. You’re witnessing the end result, not the struggle it took to get there.
Today, I was leading myself through feelings of having messed up and not being good enough. And so, I sat down and surrendered.
When I surrender, I come back into the present moment. When I’m feeling that way, I’m usually casting myself into the past or the future, and I’m not really in the now. But as I sit and breathe myself back into the present, and I feel that spaciousness open in my body, then I can say:
*“I’m offering this up. I want to know what I’m meant to learn here. Please show me what I’m meant to see.”*
And today, what came through were instructions from Spirit on how to slow down—and the reminder that my hiccups usually happen when I’m rushing and not experiencing what I’m doing from a complete, innocent beginner mind.
There’s an old adage that when doctors graduate medical school, or acupuncturists graduate acupuncture school, the first couple of years of practice are some of the best outcomes they’ll ever get. Then there’s a 20-year lag until they can reliably get those same outcomes again.
Why?
Because in the beginning, you don’t know what you don’t know—and you don’t even know what you *do* know. You approach everything with innocence. Each patient is the first time you’ve ever seen that condition. Your whole presence is there. You see the nuance.
Years later, after 150 migraine cases, your brain can go, “Oh, for migraines we do X, Y, Z,” and you miss the nuance of the human in front of you.
Then eventually, further into practice, after failures and stumbles and humbling moments, you release “knowing” and enter *wisdom.*
Wisdom is the space of actually knowing nothing.
It’s a complete release of needing to know.
Because only in the now can the true understandings flow through and show you the depth of the case in front of you.
This is the process I lead myself through when I find myself off-kilter or stumbling. And the truth is, it happens to me all the time.
I’ve had clients get mad at me.
I’ve made choices in cases that I later realized weren’t the best.
I’ve felt shame, fear, disappointment—all of it.
And I always lead myself back to this place.
Because we’re human, and we all do this.
I have mentors who do this so effortlessly because they’ve been walking it for decades. I have guides who openly admit that they mess up all the time—botched full day treatments they had to redo, clients who were angry, moments they felt they’d failed.
This is part of being human.
But the real question is: *What do we do when we go there?*
Do we beat ourselves up?
Do we descend into the pit for three weeks believing we’re a piece of sh%t
Or do we lead ourselves back to center?
And each time you do it, it takes less and less time—which may lead others to think you never wobble.
So I’m writing this to say: you’re not alone.
Just today I had to lead myself through the muck.
And you can too.
And if you want help, this is part of restoring connection to the body.
This is part of restoring vitality.
This is part of restoring life force.
This is part of coming alive.
We do this work in my world every single day, all while we restore body, mind, emotions and spirit.
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