03/31/2026
And that’s on hypervigilance 💁🏼♀️
I used to think there was something wrong with me to my core. Why every energy shift or look from someone would unravel me from the inside. Make me a question what it meant, if I did something wrong, I would spiral so fast and so deep that I would end up, creating an entire scenario in my head and hurting my own feelings.
This is called hypervigilence. We learned at one point that if we could predict and change the emotions of those around us then we could find a sense of safety. The adults around us most likely didn’t have the ability to regulate themselves and their emotions and so we became responsible. Unraveling that later in life because complicated, especially when you picked up those skills at a very young age. For some of us before we could even talk.
I’ve done so much healing and rewiring but healing isn’t linear and there is no arrival. I am now able to catch the first signs of ruminating before I’m too far down the hole and the thing I turn to to get me back to present is music and dancing. I have a certain song I sing when I think about certain things or people. It helps to stop the loop. It gets me out of my head and into my body. Do I have to do it what feels like a million times a day sometimes? Yes, but every moment of bringing myself back to present it a moment of coming home to myself and at this point I will continue to do that as many times as I need. 💚
