12/10/2025
I have no results, and I don't expect to have them anytime soon because Vincent's oncologist let me know that radiology has been really behind on reading scans and finalizing the reports. Like DAYS behind! It is extremely frustrating to watch the changes in the healthcare system over the past 7 years, and not for the better. I could get way up high on my soapbox about it but I don't have the energy to scream into the void.
Vincent's start time was later than I like today, but he handled everything well and only asked for milk once. We walked into the MRI area and for the first time in forever, there was not 1 familiar face. I didn't like it. I don't think our nurse was a regular in MRI and the entire vibe just felt off today. I didn't like it. The scan seemed to take longer than usual and we passed the 3 hour mark in the waiting room before being called back.
This was Vincent's 52nd MRI and probably 200th time going under anesthesia. People tend to take going under anesthesia like it's not a big deal, but it is, every time. Vincent has never had a problem recovering from anesthesia. Until today.
Less than 10 minutes after we walked into his recovery room his airway obstructed, the nurse called a code, and 5 nurses and the anesthesiologist came running into the room and I quickly slipped out the door. I stood there for several minutes listening to them trying to get him breathing with my back to the door, every few seconds I would peek in at Ramin who would tell me everything I needed to know with his eyes. I think I held my breath the entire time praying that he did not need to be intubated. A nurse asked if I needed a chair, I calmly replied that "no I was fine, this isn't a big deal we've dealt with worse". If she believed me, maybe I would believe it too. I finally locked eyes with Ramin and knew it was ok, Vincent was ok, he was breathing. Yes, it was a minor situation in comparison to many of the things we have been through but the fear and the risk were the same in those moments. Vincent is fine. He was back to himself in no time.
Now we wait, the hardest part. And pray that we get stable results with no concerns. Cancer free, now and forever.