10/31/2025
Front Porch Diaries take 163
Laying in bed after a long day at work and a busy few hours at home prepping for my girls weekend away. I’m tired and sore from last nites body pump workout and then I realized the date. October 30. It is officially 1 month since I finished my cancer treatments. That month went by fast. Bone pain hasn’t gone away. Some days are better than others. I feel ….. different. Idk how to explain it. I feel … free, sometimes fearful but I try my best to breath through that emotion. My oncologist told me it is perfectly normal to feel nervous when you are no longer treating… I thought he was crazy but nope he is right. Like treating was keeping it at bay. But I didn’t treat for 5 yrs and go thru 13 surgeries to only be a prisoner of my thoughts for the rest of my beautiful life.
I am feeling really drawn to yoga again. Maybe because it brings me such peace to practice regularly. Finding myself planning a lot of things…. This winter and the updates I want to do to my house, I bought a cabinet for 40 off of yard sale site and I am going to try my hand at restoring it, I want to paint my basement walls and then there is this voice that is urging me to do all the things I want to. Retire in 2 yrs, plan a retreat, do a bo***ir shoot, hire a trainer and really work on getting fit. Any recommendations for a good trainer and photographer who does bo***ir shoots pls message me.
I want to have FUN, LIVE FULLY.
I started writing a book about my experience. Taking my time and only writing when I feel called to. So far 3 chapters. I could go on n on…it’s like my brain is on fire to do, feel, experience.
Now I really wish I had thrown a party for the end of my treatments. I didn’t because I just felt really overwhelmed but now… I would like to celebrate life, celebrate all of you who were my sounding board for 5 years. If I could, I would love to hug each and every one of you.
I just love parties! Laughing, have fun, just exhaling and enjoying being here and if I am lucky to make a few more friends.
Lastly, the meds i was taking stripped me of all hormones. I feel a little more energy and oddly, kinda lost my appetite. I have been intermittent fasting from about 8 pm to 11 a.m. I want to work my way up to a 3 day fast once a month. At the 72 hour mark your body releases all the sick cells and replaces them with new clean ones. My goal is to do 1 72 hr fast a month. I have 14 lbs to lose to be at my goal weight. I have no timeframe and the number isn’t as important to me than my strength.
My goal… be good to myself, be kind to myself and don’t put off till tomorrow what I can and want to do today!
Xoxo,
Michele
❤️
