03/06/2026
I want to speak honestly from my heart about where I am in my life right now.
I have been deeply shaped by the teachings in Your Soul Had a Dream, Your Life is It by Rebecca Campbell. This book found me during a season of profound descent, grief, and rebirth — a season where it felt like parts of my life, and parts of myself, were breaking open so something more true could emerge.
The grief I have moved through has been deep and expansive. I have grieved versions of myself that are no longer here. I have grieved relationships that have changed form. I have grieved expectations I once had for my life. And I have also grieved collectively — feeling the grief of women across time who have been silenced, shamed, or held in systems that did not always honor their voices or their power. It felt like my heart shattered open into pieces so that something deeper could be born through me.
Through this experience and Rebecca Campell’s teachings, I am learning that beauty is not superficial. Beauty is harmony. Beauty is a devotional and spiritual practice. I move through the world creating beauty because I feel energy and harmony deeply. When I prepare spaces, arranging altars, tending to lighting, flowers, moving objects with intention, and designing containers for healing work, I am not trying to control anything.
I am expressing devotion.
I am creating energetic harmony between the seen and unseen worlds. I believe beauty communicates safety, care, and sacred presence before any words are spoken. This is simply how I naturally create.
I used to feel pressure when others would label this as being controlling or difficult. But I am learning that this is often projection from people who may not have harmony, structure, or intentionality in their own relationship to space and energy. For me, structure is not restriction. Structure is the container that allows cycling energy, emotion, healing, and transformation to move freely and safely.
Rebeccas words are also helping me to learn what it means to be a mystic, which I now realize is the path I am walking.
Mystics do not only create through production. Our world often measures success by how much we produce, how fast we produce, and how constantly we produce. But I am learning that mystic creation comes from alignment, from source, from listening, from honoring cycles of rest, descent, and rebirth. Creation does not always have to be about making more — sometimes it is about creating what is true and what is spiritually alive.
This descent has not been destruction. It has been initiation. Parts of me have died so that new parts of me could be born. And through it all, I feel deeply grateful for the wisdom that has found me exactly when I needed to be held.
I am learning to stand fully in my truth — even if others do not fully understand it. Because I am not here to be constantly producing or appeasing others. I am here to create from mysticism, from embodiment, from energetic beauty, and from sacred devotion.
And I am endlessly grateful for the women, teachers, and wisdom keepers who have walked this path before me and help hold my hand as I continue stepping forward. Thank you Rebecca for your book and work!