01/30/2026
I have a fear of traveling without all the comforts of home. When I got to my hotel I realized that I randomly placed the same things in various forms of storage bags just in case I might NEED something.
I am in beautiful Saint Petersberg Florida, in a very nice hotel room learning about shifting identity and leadership as I obsessively go about cleaning out traveling bags full of chapstick, lip gloss, eyeglass cleaners, tea bags, electrolytes, hair ties, acid reducers and herbal remedies to help with anxiety in all the many forms.
As I clean out all of these random travel bags, I make note out loud, to Bruce, I may have some issues with hoarding? Or being in control? Or not having enough? He looks up and nods yes, tenderly.
This is how I deal with anxiety, prepping weeks in advance and here I am the night before a seminar cleaning out and reorganizing my overly packed bags. I packed and repacked my bag at least twice last week to try and keep it simple and still it got tagged at the airport with the red “caution heavy”tag.
I prep to prevent the unknowns and to avoid losing control. I say I save these things just in case, I want to be completely comfortable if I end up in a bad hotel with no provisons or on a secluded island on my way to a motivational seminar about leadership and creating a new identity! But the truth is it’s stopping me from the freedom I want to create in my life.
They told me at the seminar today I needed to post something online to work on being authentically visible.
Nothing was thrown out or wasted in the making of this post, yet…
